Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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shirayla
shirayla
I think about death seems like 24 hours a day. I even wrote my sister a letter to tell how much I love her and her kids. I am going to also write other letter to people how my death will affect. I been off all my medication for over two weeks. Know one not liking the ides with no medication but my artist ability gets in the way, it makes not want to work on the computer. Does anyone understand?
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
hi, I think I do.

I can't quite follow you but I think it's that if you go on meds it kills your creativity?

I found meds kills some of my creativity - but it allows me to keep productive at a more even level so I actually get more done and at better quality.

I think you need to challenge your doctor to find a medication that manages your moods but does not take away your abilities.

To be very blunt, if you die then your artistic output will be zero.
neverbetter22
neverbetter22
I often do not feel like being on the computer, I get inpatient. Thats when I am on my meds, I also think about death but try to remember tomorrow is another day. Feel better soon.. God Bless
deleted_user
deleted_user
I keep working with my Doc to find the right med combo to allow me to function and have some creativity. Not there yet, but I won't give up. I know that for safety reasons, med-free isn't an option for me. I hope you find what works for you and feel better soon!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Please keep working with your psychiatrist to find the right combination. Your life can give so much meaning and hope to others. Yes, you may lose some creativity. But, you will gain your life and happiness. It will just take time. Plus, you will find other creative outlets to explore. But, most importantly you will find the REAL you. Right now, you're longing for the sick (manic) you and that's not really who you are, it is the bipolar and its symptoms.

Focusing on death, dying and thinking life is not worth living is not worth it, just so you can be more artistic. You owe it to yourself, your family and your friends to do EVERYTHING in your power to get healthy.

Keep working with your doctors and find the right meds for you. It's the only way for most of us to have a chance at a meaningful life.

I'll be thinking of you and wishing you luck. Stay alive, a lot of people love you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hi there, I really hope you listen to the replies below.... They have really helped me...

Thanks guys....

I still haven't found the right med mix or the right talk therapist...
Must keep on keeping on and not give up...
Love from Sanz39 xxx
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