Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
So far today I have vacuumed the entire house and I'm talking everywhere!!! Picked up, mopped the floors, did the dishes, cleaned out the kitty's water bowl, have a load of wash going, folded a basket of clothes, feeding the turtle now and I cannot stop obsessing about mowing the yard that doesn't NEED to be mowed today....it causes me a great deal of anxiety, in which I took a klonopin to help ease the tension I feel from the constant racy thoughts of having to mow the yard......sigh.
I will live through this....it's nothing new to me...I've been this way since I was a young child.....if I knew something needed to be done I would go, go, go until everything was complete....even if it made me totally unable to move the next day from muscle soreness. My father was very much obsessive about things and so were my grandparents on my mothers side. So, today I am trying to choose NOT to mow the yard....I have to break this obsessive cycle I find myself in.....just thought I would write about whats going on because it helps......thanks for reading.
I will live through this....it's nothing new to me...I've been this way since I was a young child.....if I knew something needed to be done I would go, go, go until everything was complete....even if it made me totally unable to move the next day from muscle soreness. My father was very much obsessive about things and so were my grandparents on my mothers side. So, today I am trying to choose NOT to mow the yard....I have to break this obsessive cycle I find myself in.....just thought I would write about whats going on because it helps......thanks for reading.
I could paint the entire interior of my house in 1 day.
Chop a cord of wood and stack it for my dad.
It took me many years to retrain myself to realize, I DO NOT have to finish everything in one day.
Not mowing the lawn , might be a good lesson !
There is always tomorrow
The being alright with it is the hard part.....the klonopin eased the awful anxiety state I was falling into....my eyes teared up I was feeling so damn distraught over this mowing business.
Will is helping me too by talking about it....and reminding me that it's going to be nice out tomorrow and I can always mow then.
Geeeez this is tough.......
luv ya girl
HUGE hugs
dee
Repeating that I don't have to mow the lawn.....don't have to mow the lawn with Dee,.....lol
I have the opposite problem. I don't do shit. I used to. Try playing a web game or play solitaire. Try not to obsess to much. If you have to mow the lawn, its not a big tradgedy
My head feels funny today anyway, fuzzy and slowed probably not such a good idea to be operating heavy machinery! I think I wore myself out, I'm pooping out as of right now.....sigh Nothing lasts forever huh!
It's a pain in the ass, I hear ya!
i don't know what help I could offer, but sending you a hug =)