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TC40
TC40

Along with my mental health issues, knee pain and my internal organs being stuck together with scar tissue ....I am HUGE. not big..or fat....HUGE. It is affecting my knee pain. I will not divulge my weight, but it is awful. I have so many things wrong and I am so depressed that I just don't care anymore. I guess I am hastening my death because I seem to be unwilling to make steps to change it. I know that only I have this power.  I live with so much pain and internal issues that my weight issues are not being addressed. Being in pain only makes me want to come home and hide. I hate myself for it, I KNOW I am huge. I can see it in the looks on peoples' faces. They look at me with disgust. It is humiliating and maddening. I lost 100 pounds in 1998. Then, in 2007, I lost 75 pounds. I have gained it all back twofold. I am not living. I am existing. There are so many things that I want to do, but can't, either because of my size and/or the pain in my knees. Just doing general housework is a total struggle. I don't know how to turn this around. I am feeling very hopeless. I just don't know where to begin. Help.

mlr0853
mlr0853
You can call your primary care doctor and be referred to a nutritionist, the nutritionist no doubt will help you to find a support group based on your goals.
Your primary care doctor can refer you to a physical therapist, based on their assessment of your mobility, they can give you exercises to reduce pain and a safe exercise program. Best!
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
Tc, I wonder if you've ever tried doing a gratitude journal? I am so sorry you are dealing with health issues and workplace woes... I wonder if a gratitude journal could help you see positive lights when it seems there aren't any? It is a really personal thing but the actual act of thinking positively about something (no matter how small) can help with all the overwhelming things. (((Hugs)))
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
Big hugs for you.
polarbare
polarbare
I know the energy it takes to will oneself to do things when health both mentally and physically are affecting us.... You are one tough cookie to have succeeded in the past in reaching goals ... You have strength you have yet to uncover ... Self talk is important ... Make a note of what people love about you and know you are of value ... Weight is a number but it is not who you are.... Be kind to yourself... Your road is not an easy one but give yourself credit for what you have achieved....
(( hugs )) polar
Braveredhead
Braveredhead
I know it's hard to be big. I am overweight. Have u talked to your doctor about weight loss options? Little steps in the right direction do so much over time. Maybe once a week start off walking. A lot yourself one sweet a week. Just take it slow. Hang in there. Things will turn around for you.
autumn8890
autumn8890
I also think a nutritionist might be able to help. If you could get the pain under control you might be able to walk some each day and burn calories. I so struggle with weight issues as well, more than in the past, and I know it is no fun. Just remember your value has nothing to do with your size. You are still a great person who has worth and you deserve to be happy. Big Hugs!!!
Halterbroke
Halterbroke
What worked for you before? That's kind of where I am right now. I lost 70 lbs in 2007 and 90 in 2012. Now the scale is creeping up again. I never got down to my ideal weight even with all that weight loss and now I don't have the motivation at all. I had a blood sugar event yesterday which really freaked me out, because at my heaviest I developed diabetes, when I lost weight it went away, but I also had gestational diabetes when I was pregnant, so I am high risk. My motivation is going to have to be staying healthy and not diabetic. But mostly, I just don't care. I am a food addict. I walk every day but walking isn't cutting it anymore. I wish I didn't love food so much and could be bothered to care about how I look right now because that always motivated me before. I wish I had some advice for you but mostly I just wanted to commiserate...
MayB
MayB
Last spring you started going to a gym and were liking the experience can you go back? It's hard to lose weight when you are in pain. A friend walks in a swimming pool as it helps her to exercise without putting a lot of weight on her knees can you do that? Does warm wet heat help your knees? Find what works TC and go for it!
MayB
MayB
I also wanted to add I found many friends in "Overeater's Anonymous" it's a 12 step program but it's throughout the USA and also has online groups. Many kind people who know the territory well.....if you google "Overeater's Anyomous" you can get their home page and see if that is helpful for you.
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