ok, so I got a temp job. Full time. In the same business that I got laid off from in February. Let me first just point out that I am grateful because I was literally two weeks from running out of unemployment. That being said....because I will be "making too much" money at a job that may not even turn out to be permanent, my Medicaid will be cut off, thus causing me to have to pay for all of my Rx's and a monthly premium through the affordable care plan. If all this didn't suck A***, this temp job is CRAZY. I was supposed to be doing reception work and some clerical work. Now I am being asked to do what I feel is way beyond the pay that I'm getting. The place is in total chaos. Two of my coworkers have only been there like two and three months. No one knows wtf they are doing. Instead of transferring calls to the appropriate people (isn't that what a "receptionist " is supposed to do)??, I am being asked to do more and more. They want me to use my own car to do bank deposits, sign letters for documents going back to customers....plus a new boss started yesterday and he is like a jack Russell terrier on speed. I have to sit there with a fake smile pasted on my face when all I want to do is lay in bed and cry. So there is that..

I was supposed to start a home health companion job part time this weekend. I honestly don't think I can do it. I'm having a hard enough time making it through this crap, how am I supposed to do that too? PLUS, I still have to work on an online course that is self paced. I have had to have an extension because I'm nowhere near done.

I can't talk to my family. All they do is judge me.

I am ready for God to come and take me.