can you go for a drive? get out of the negative energy for a while?

i would be triggered too if my partner didn't believe in my professional diagnosis. i think you need to get away from that energy for an hour...to get your bearings back.

when i am in a negative place, the only thing that works for me is removing myself physically. usually the mind will follow.

(((Tats)))~~

I'm so sorry you're all worked up. PMDD is absolutely real. No question.

Is there a way to go to the hospital on your own without the police being involved?

Does your gramma need constant care or can she manage for a spell on her own while you get the help you need? There's a service in our area called Visiting Angles that looks in on seniors, prepares meals, runs errands, whatever needs to be done.

Sending peaceful wishes your way.

Thanks everyone I was able to calm down and get to bed, now up and real groggy because of the seroquel, but really wishing I did not have to wake up......

Having a reaction to seroquel inner restlessness and facial grimacing....damn does it get any better. sigh

Tats? You feeling any better ? I'm worried about you. Remember, your on a new med (probably not the right one) and youve got pmdd. Once you get your meds straightened out and your period comes you'll start to feel a bit better. Horrible timing, my pdoc started me on geodon when I started my monthly cycle and it terrified me. This too shall pass.

I'm so sorry your being triggered : ( maybe take some time for you?

Maybe you can get a different benzo rx'd?

I didnt want to call crisis last month so I went to an online crisis website and it helped a bit..

(((((gentle hugs))) it will be ok Tats


http://www.crisischat.org/

Thanks so much for the link.......I'm worried to actually don't feel good, don't like this one bit, not one damn bit. have to call pdoc today and see what she wants me to do.

Not in a good frame right now drinking some coffee trying to pull out of the haze but want to come out of my skin....thinking I should have left the Ap's alone all together!

Oh honey, i really really feel for you, damn wrong AP and hormones. Hopefully your pdoc calls you back ASAP. Blow up his phone today, tell them its an emergency, hopefully he will rx you something to counteract everything.

You will get through this tats

Thanks bunches just called the pdoc and talked to the nurse....she asked if I wanted to be put on something else and I just said I don't know what the hell to do but I need something because I'm not well. Hell I'm tired of being my own doctor and making suggestions ya know? They are the ones that went to school for this shit FIGURE IT OUT!!!

To be honest though I am well was a nurse and do know alot about these meds and all the AP's they put me on are going to do the same thing to me. They used to be very sedating to me and work well now I get all these rarer side effects and cannot tolerate them.

She mentioned Lithium at my last appt....may have to go that route again but I never felt lithium touched me or did a damn thing to help ease episodse etc.....I personally feel screwed atm sigh

tats. I can only tell you what I would do and in doing so I hope it will help.
if Grandma has medicare &/or medicaid. I would get in home care service to take care of her.
after doing so. I would go to hospital n sign myself in. the hospital P-Dr n P-Nurses will work directly w my Dr.
some hospitals work w charity that will cover part or all of medical bills.
The hospital know name n ph no's to said charity's.
Oh ya. I would hire someone to over c care of my child. maybe get 1 or 2 g/f or realive's to stand in for me.
No matter what I would take care of myself. let the chips fall where they may.My health comes 1st.
View hospital visit as mini vacation. They really can put humpty dumpty back together.

This is just my experience and my perspective. I can understand not wanting to go to the hospital. I got homicidal fairly recently and went completely psycho for lack of a better word.

I ended up taking care of myself first because if I didn't take care of me there was no way I could take care of my family (son with issues and somewhat disabled husband)

You are doing the right thing by calling professionals who can help you.

White knuckling the homicidal thoughts is the worst place I've ever been in my life to be honest. I'm saying this so you know you are not alone.

It's horrible right now but I promise things DO get better. Take care of you first so then you will be able to help others including your son.

Ice will bring me back to the present quicker than anything in my experience. I learned that in my DBT class.

It was very frightening for me to feel the way I felt and I was scared of what I might do to others.

I hope your doctor/nurse calls back soon. Could you take a walk with your son? Perhaps that might be beneficial to both of you.

I don't know about PMDD. Never heard of it but did google it to find out info. I never experienced this but that does not mean it isn't real.

I agree with the post I read about getting home health care for your grandma.

If you take care of you first then you will be of help to others.

Sorry I'm droning on about that but I just want you to know you are not alone.

i am tremendously proud of you my friend, for getting through this crisis without it escalating to violence and police and all that negative stuff.

you did good tats. real good!!!

I found out Angel Food Ministries is no longer.

I did find this link which may be of help they have all sorts of stuff on this site. From credit cards and counseling (for money issues) to food and paying medical bills.

http://www.needhelppayingbills.com/index.html

I was actually looking for stuff for my SIL as my brother went from making a good amount of money per year to making less than $25,000 per year they are having a really rough time and three kids in college.

Hope this helps.