Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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Things in my life are not going very well atm, horrible actually and now my son is upset.....I don't have anyone to call or talk to, maybe crisis but I don't want to land in the hospital but I'm thinking that might be the best place for me just can't make that move. I don't want to hurt myself I want to hurt someone else.......BAD PMDD but it's not believed in, in my home here so I get absolutely no support where that is concerned even though it was diagnosed by my pdoc.
I feel it's too late to sedate myself because he, my son has an appt in the am. I don't even know why I am writing this now because everyone is probably asleep.
I never knew I could feel so angry.....ever in all my life! I've had alot to deal with with my mom being ill, taking care of things for my 95yo Grandmother....PMDD issues, other things, financial strains, how much can I take.......now I cannot stop crying and yelling, I've upset my son with help of course and feel like driving off with him to wherever we end up.......I need help. Someone needs to tell me what to do here.....
I feel it's too late to sedate myself because he, my son has an appt in the am. I don't even know why I am writing this now because everyone is probably asleep.
I never knew I could feel so angry.....ever in all my life! I've had alot to deal with with my mom being ill, taking care of things for my 95yo Grandmother....PMDD issues, other things, financial strains, how much can I take.......now I cannot stop crying and yelling, I've upset my son with help of course and feel like driving off with him to wherever we end up.......I need help. Someone needs to tell me what to do here.....
drink water.
try pushing air around/breath control like when you give birth, kind of like lamas (sp?) and take deep breath, hold it in for 30 seconds, or as long as you can even... and then blow it out through pursed lips with gusto...
or
when you breath in , try breathing in first from your feet and draw the energy up from the earth into your heart, let it marinate...blow out through pursed lips as forceful as you want or as slow..
then, pull the air in through your nose again slowly and steadily and bring the energy from your crown chakra, into your heart.
hold your breath there... as long as you want... exhale straight out from your heart through pursed lips and controlled..
now, pull the energy in through feet (gaia) and head (celestial) as you breath into the heart chakra at the same time through pursed lips and with measured control and force....
this is the heart breath and you can do it to ground and move the energy.
i wish i knew what to say to help this moment, but i'm at a loss for words. you are my friend and i'm here for you though, and support you in every way.
Fuck guys my mom is sick and I can't go into hospital but I think I need to but she i depending on me to take care of my grandma and other things......but I can't even take care of me right now......
heart breath-
in through feet into heart space very slowly and measured and hold...
exhale out though heart space ......... whoooooooooooshhhhhhhhhhh
(as big and deep and slow of breaths in as possible, holding it in as long as possible each time)
in through head into heart space, very slowly and measured and hold... ( a loooong time, as long as you can )
exhale out through heart space .........
whooooooooooooooshhhhhhhhh
in through both head and feet to heart space, slow and measured and hold..............
exhale out through heart space .........
whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooshhhhhhhhhh
( reapeat as much as possible. )
circular breathing-
breathing in a circle by starting the inhale before the exhale is finished and vice versa... never quite pausing for the usual full space between breaths.
breathing in a O
then after you do that a while- it'll get ya dizzy...
you can do the regular deep breathing into belly and really push the air alllll the way out and take a good long time trying smoothly suck in as much air as possible on the inhale
full deep breathing as far as you can take it...
so it makes you dizzy.
you won't be angry anymore if you do it right.
then take a long hot shower or bath.
take care :(
i hope you feel better.
you'll be okay... i know. i've had tremendous anger before.
try to think, ok, i'm angry... but i'm not going to forget, and i will deal with this tomorrow so that i can do it in a calm, level headed and present way and take care of it.
write down what is bothering you so you don't feel like you are stuffing anything.
Why do things have to be so tough.....I'm strong but damn not that fn strong.....I cannot stop crying.....I'm beyond upset way past that point. Shit I'm so scared.....
run in place.
sit-ups
push-ups
stretching/(yoga)
i know i don't even want to do it when i'm that angry, but maybe you can gently but firmly coax yourself
(( BIG firm and calming HUG - i'm holding you and the energies are moving ))
your heart hurts. we will fix this.
you're tired and worn out and it is understandable.
bless you xoxoxo
blessings...