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Not As Happy With Medication As I Expected

jennypenny6000
jennypenny6000

My whole life, I've been living with such emotion. My joys would bring me sky high, my lows would bring me rock bottom. Now I'm living life in a box, never too high or too low. My dream for so long finally realized and I don't know how much I actually like it. I feel so small and plain. Anyone else ever had a similar identity crisis on medication? 

Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
I get it. I started lithium a couple months ago and my mood hit the middle. Much as I love the highs, I hate the lows. Can't have one without the other though. You gotta weigh the pros and cons. Middle for me is better than the lows. If you're that unhappy, talk to your dr
LivingWater
LivingWater
I also feel drab and lifeless sometimes because I'm medicated. But bipolar is a very sneaky disease. Without meds, we run a very high chance of suicide when low, and a very high chance of risky and reckless behavior when high. It is an insidious disease. We often don't perceive when we are becoming ill. Our judgment can be terrible. I attempted suicide more than once before they found the right meds for me. Also when manic I almost got myself arrested. So take the meds is my advice.
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
I wish I could feel real joy, again.
arfie
arfie
I started psychotherapy in 1972, about 20 years before the advent of "Med Therapy," so I have never felt the drug-induced variety I hear so much of from folks on med cocktails, but I got massive doses of feeling drab and lifeless as I let go of my most dysfunctional passions.

Don't know if it is the same, or not, but I wonder often.

For what it is worth: I did regain my ability and confidence to find joy in life. My new joys feel much more sustainable than the manic antics ever did.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I think the phrase taking time to stop and smell the roses can be just as rewarding just different from riding the waves..if u find that you are to blunt in your mood I would discuss it with your process...perhaps your message need a little tweak....big hug...xo
autumn8890
autumn8890
I often feel dull and drab, sort of stuck in the middle while medicated. However, I do miss the higs sometimes but they always got me into trouble either intrapersonally or financially. The lows almost cost me my life on many occasions so I choose to stay medicated even though being there in the middle, the gray area, is hard as well.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
It took me a very long time to feel like 'myself' while still medicated. I still miss my younger energetic self in certain life situations but I'm very pleased to be stable. ((((Hugs))))
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