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Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Not a very good day

PaganSpirit
PaganSpirit
Today started out fine but as it went on I found myself thinking about how my life is stuck in a rut right now, how I've hurt people, the mistakes I've made,etc. I don't know where these thoughts come from but it sucks how they can creep up on me and turn my mood in the negative direction. I look at the scars on my arm and I'm reminded of the night someone I cared about saw me almost end my like and the pain and nightmares it caused her. That scar is the worst one. I look at all the others and wonder if I will ever be able to stop cutting. The legal troubles I have remind me of how I was an idiot and used poor judgment. It affects my ability to go places and do things and I feel like such a loser. I'm thankful my family is helping me out but its a huge inconvenience for them and I feel guilty for it. I have so many scars physically and I have so much emotional baggage I'm starting to think I'm better off alone. Thanks for reading, I just needed to vent a bit.
dancingd
dancingd
Venting is good .

And a reminder....many of us have had the same feelings.

Keep your family close, they need you, you need them.
The part about feeling like you should be alone...that is a lie your depression is telling you

Big Hugs
GinaWonders
GinaWonders
Depression wants you alone, isolated and discouraged!
((((BIG HUG))))

Vent and change some thoughts - how about, you've made mistakes, and I won't do That mistake again....... we have to replace the bad thoughts.....
tommymott
tommymott
Forgive yourself and others will forgive you too.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Great big hug of comfort for you P.... Today is a new day.... A minute...an hour ...a day at a time....xo
PaganSpirit
PaganSpirit
Thank you all for the support, hugs and advice. It means a lot to me.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sorry your feeling like this..sounds like you may be depressed. Can you call your pdoc and tell him your feeling like this. Just remember we all have baggage and regret some of the things we have done..I have a large list as well..
Autumn111269
Autumn111269
I also have scars I have to live with forever, but I don't let them take away my life anymore. It is hard to stop cutting but you can do it. You can!!!! email me anytime you want to talk about it. I haven't cut in 6 years. You really can get past it, it is just a primitive coping skill and you can stop. I am glad you have family that is willing to take you in. That's awesome. There will come a time when maybe you don't have to live with them but as long as they are willing then don't let it get you down, nothing is forever. I hope you get to feeling better soon and bug hugs just for you!!!
Autumn111269
Autumn111269
meant big hugs lol
deleted_user
deleted_user
Venting is necessary & so are hugs ..(((hugs))) :).
2kidmom
2kidmom
Sounds like depression has you all chained up! It wants to control you tear you down and take you down, its holding you prisoner? Hold onto family tightly and get meds to balance you out. Sounds like racing thoughts too. {{{{HUGS}}}}
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