So I went to my appt and what do you know- she decided I didn't need to be on meds just yet and after a few minutes of chatting it up declared me to be un-bipolar. Yep, she said I am absolutely not bipolar by any stretch of the imagination. I do have BP tendencies and behaviours but that's it. She thinks I have borderline personality disorder which wasn't very shocking to me but I'm hoping they find that that isn't true. Further along she said we should try to not focus on a label/dx but try instead to figure out the root of my behaviours and moods. I agree but I think having a name makes it less scary because I can find a way to understand it and... Make peace with it? According to her I'll be monitored and maybe put on anti-depressants which frankly worries me cos if I have bp tendencies there's no telling what anti-ds will do to me. Hello possible mania. Sigh.
Morning y'all.