Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
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Hi everyone,
Super short bio: have had anxiety since forever, depression since my teens, (diagnosed). I have an aversion to taking meds, so I manage everything manually. Therefore, I'm super, amazingly controlled. I know and have used almost every trick in the book for both issues. As a result, I look and act very "normal"...but that only because I use a vast amount of my mental and emotional resources to outwardly look that way. I'm actually a huge mess inside most of the time, which is what I'm trying to fix now.
My newest therapist sent me to a psychiatrist who, after three minutes, diagnosed me with bipolar and recommended a mood stabilizer...I've been on multiple SSRIs before with minimal results (Prozac took the edge off and turned off the waterworks, but that's about it). I'm all read up on depression meds, but I know next to nothing about mood stabilizers.
Actually, the only thing I know is that the people I've met who take them seem a little "off"...They are socially different, childlike, some had tics...and most of them weren't just on one med, they ended up with a crazy cocktail of medication to "function" and not to be mean, but I outwardly function better than them, mess that I am.
I don't know if it's just my experience with these specific people, but I am terrified to go on mood stabilizers if that is what it's going to do to me...
So, I think what I'm asking for is a little reassurance and advice, you know, since you all have also known me for three minutes ;)
Am I working off of bad stereotypes? Am I just being stubborn? Any particular meds to watch out for? Is this psychiatrist a total chemical pushing crock?
Help! Thanks!
Super short bio: have had anxiety since forever, depression since my teens, (diagnosed). I have an aversion to taking meds, so I manage everything manually. Therefore, I'm super, amazingly controlled. I know and have used almost every trick in the book for both issues. As a result, I look and act very "normal"...but that only because I use a vast amount of my mental and emotional resources to outwardly look that way. I'm actually a huge mess inside most of the time, which is what I'm trying to fix now.
My newest therapist sent me to a psychiatrist who, after three minutes, diagnosed me with bipolar and recommended a mood stabilizer...I've been on multiple SSRIs before with minimal results (Prozac took the edge off and turned off the waterworks, but that's about it). I'm all read up on depression meds, but I know next to nothing about mood stabilizers.
Actually, the only thing I know is that the people I've met who take them seem a little "off"...They are socially different, childlike, some had tics...and most of them weren't just on one med, they ended up with a crazy cocktail of medication to "function" and not to be mean, but I outwardly function better than them, mess that I am.
I don't know if it's just my experience with these specific people, but I am terrified to go on mood stabilizers if that is what it's going to do to me...
So, I think what I'm asking for is a little reassurance and advice, you know, since you all have also known me for three minutes ;)
Am I working off of bad stereotypes? Am I just being stubborn? Any particular meds to watch out for? Is this psychiatrist a total chemical pushing crock?
Help! Thanks!
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If that's literally true then get a second opinion. No one can diagnose someone that quickly - not even if you were obviously psychotic it would take longer to find out why.
"I don't know if it's just my experience with these specific people, "
Yes it probably is. Alot of people won't tell you they are on bipolar meds and therefore are invisible to you.
"Am I working off of bad stereotypes?"
Yes.
But the main advice is - get a second opinion. I spent about 2 hours with a psychiatrist and at the end only got a tentative diagnosis. It was then firmed up after a number of other visits.
Just as a note, yes, the psychiatrist skimmed my chart from my psychologist (less than 15 seconds), asked me the most basic questions (are you suicidal? do you cut? etc.) and recommended the mood stabilizers about 5 minutes into the appointment
My experience with psychiatrists (I've had 4 now) are that they are very much focused on getting me on meds quickly. I always feel like they are assuming that because I made the appointment, that I want to be pumped full of all sorts of chemicals...and when I tell them I'm just looking for an opinion and recommendations, they act offended.
Maybe I'm just being too stubborn, maybe I'm actually self sabotaging--resisting the very thing that will make life easier...I don't know, but I do know the whole thing didn't feel right.
Those are the two main mood stabilizers - lithium and valproic acid, and then there are substitutes that a specialist might prescribe, like Lamictal (which is only used for the "maintenance" phase if you are in a 'stable' state; it also works better for depression instead of "mania," according to my former specialist), as well as antipsychotics (which, along with treating psychotic symptoms, can be used for treating both depression/mania.
It's all up to you whether or not you choose to take these mood stabilizers. If your normal, everyday functioning is negatively impacted, you might want to consider them. If effective, they will help to keep you in a "stable" state -- that is to say, out of depressive states where you are sleeping all the time, tired, unmotivated, have a low mood, etc., and out of manic phases, when you are over-spending, and engaging in risky-type behaviors such as out-of-character sexual activities (hyper-sexual behavior), dangerous driving, and other potentially destructive actions.
To answer your question, in my previous experience, I have had bad reactions to all medicines which I have taken. I've gained 25+ pounds on each one I've tried, some caused severe nausea and fatigue (basically leaving me to sleep all day and become an unproductive person), and I've also developed painful muscle spasms, which went away when treatment was stopped. You have to consider your particular situation, and if taking the medication is worth it for you.
exactly. They stop you from acting weird.
But it's a balance.
If your bipolar is limited in the sense that it doesn't periodically wreck your career, relationships, endanger yourself and others then possibly don't take the meds but be aware it has a tendency to progress, more and wider mood swings so while you might decide toady that is right today that might change in the future.
Personally I can't imagine going back to the life I had before and it's a wonder that I managed to "get away" with as much as I did previously.
Best wishes in your journey. Support groups help too! There are many people out there who understand.
It 'sounds' from what you've written that you've been to a few doctors and are still 'a mess inside' but you can where a mask of sanity??
Why would you want to live in this type of misery when you could be stable?
Yes psychiatrists do manage psychiatric meds.. It's their job... They're medical doctors... That's what they do
Psychologists work on the therapeutic side of things...
However BP is an imbalance in chemistry and thus we are on medications for this... Bipolar is a treatable disorder... Acceptance is a huge step in treating yourself well... Big hug...x