Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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tothebone
tothebone

Hey there everyone! I’ve never been open or honest about being bipolar with anyone except my boyfriend. I struggle with insecurity and loneliness and it’s normally what sends me spiraling. I also have been recovering mentally from anorexia, which becomes more tempting to go back to when I have hard times... My life is starting to feel like a field of eggshells... I’m constantly tiptoeing, suppressing, and avoiding situations that could potentially end poorly. Because of this my relationship is suffering and I am more isolated and shy than I have been in my entire life. When I get upset my heart starts to pound what feels like instantly and it’s unrelenting. My mind feels like it’s been engulfed with rage and I will break slam and hit things, which feels so unlike me.... and having to apologize for acting way over the top and fighting or inhibiting our (me and my boyfriends) lives in any way is becoming such a burden on me and I feel so guilty. Anyone with similar experiences? Any advice? Thanks so much for reading. 

Tesla369
Tesla369
Hi there. I am new here. I struggle with intense feelings of isolation. I don't really tell anyone about my mental struggles. Only my family and husband know about it. I have also acted out in ways that I'm not proud of. Lately, I think I'm more frustrated than angry, but I don't like taking it out on other people. It is just a constant relentless battle. It just doesn't let up. If I'm really agitated, I try to stay away from other people so I don't take it out on them. Sometimes, it's an epic failure. You are not alone. I know that I have forgotten that at times. It's hard for me to even reach out on internet support groups. It seems so silly. I hope things get better for you.
mlr0853
mlr0853
Welcome tothebone :) This illness has taken me to many places I'd rather not have visited. No, you are not alone, we walk in the shoes of bp, yet each shoe is a different size. For me, I had years of anger/frustration as I lived and breathed...slowly with age, lots of Very Deep Hard therapy, I learned what was under the anger and dealt with the bottom line...I'm still a work in progress. After being dx'd 35 years ago, Isolation is very familiar to avoid taking on other peoples energy, I need quiet to regain, fill up my mental health strength and use tools. Yup, daily, I just try to push past 'my feelings/thoughts' Not let them take control over my life.... another work in progress...
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Welcome to the board.... I'm sorry for what's brought you here but glad that you've found us

Are you under the care of a psychiatrist? if you don't mind my asking.... xo
Deckard
Deckard
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