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I was diagnosed with bi polar but my bi polar doesn't sound like bi polar to me.
My symptoms were having good days and bad days as far as being able to function, and my mood was only effected by how well I was able to function that day. I have never exhibited mania that I know of. I have highly dis organized thoughts, which is why I was unable to function.
I was put on geodon which worked like a miracle at first so I didn't argue about my diagnosis (Hey as long as the meds work right?) but about a year later the meds stopped working. Now I am severely un-motivated. I barely take care of my self, and I'm constantly in trouble because I miss appointments. I don't currently work there's probably no way I'd be able to handle it. I'm trying to get SSI but because I don't hear voices and seem to be normal other wise, I keep getting denied.
I also have a terrible sleep disorder. I can't sleep at night and when I do finally sleep its usually for about 12 hours. When I'm lucky I don't sleep at all. I don't feel tired and there for I don't sleep, even the next night I still wont feel tired.
Now I've been off my meds for about 2 months now, and haven't noticed much difference other than now I sleep all the time. randomly I will pass out beyond my control and sleep for a few hours then I will wake up for a few hours alternately and randomly. I literally have no control over my sleep patterns, When it's time to sleep I fall asleep even when it is inappropriate. I do not drive so no worries there how ever I have fallen asleep in public.
Also mood swings? what mood swings? I have no emotions and I haven't been feeling them for almost a year. Well maybe that's a tad of an exaggeration I do have them but they are so weak I can barely tell. I should be depressed out of my mind or upset, but I feel nothing. I feel no motivation or even concern. If I feel any thing it's less than human.
Its not good to feel no motivation or concern especially when my situation demands both! I lost all my benefits that I was getting through well fare, so now I might lose everything I own when I can't pay bills. I finally just got back on med's yesterday but only to find out I lose my health insurance tomorrow. I did re apply but who knows if I'll even get it again.
I don't know. I know I need help but so far nothing has helped I'm not even very hopeful of these new med's I was put on. I will of course still take them as I have no choice but to do so. If something doesn't change soon I may end up on the streets and homeless.
My family is un sympathetic, they think I'm just being lazy. And they don't think I'm mentally ill, because I don't appear mentally ill to them. They also for some reason think I'm better with out my meds. well I've been off them for 2 months and there's nothing better about me. I still have no emotions, no motivation and lack general concern.
My symptoms were having good days and bad days as far as being able to function, and my mood was only effected by how well I was able to function that day. I have never exhibited mania that I know of. I have highly dis organized thoughts, which is why I was unable to function.
I was put on geodon which worked like a miracle at first so I didn't argue about my diagnosis (Hey as long as the meds work right?) but about a year later the meds stopped working. Now I am severely un-motivated. I barely take care of my self, and I'm constantly in trouble because I miss appointments. I don't currently work there's probably no way I'd be able to handle it. I'm trying to get SSI but because I don't hear voices and seem to be normal other wise, I keep getting denied.
I also have a terrible sleep disorder. I can't sleep at night and when I do finally sleep its usually for about 12 hours. When I'm lucky I don't sleep at all. I don't feel tired and there for I don't sleep, even the next night I still wont feel tired.
Now I've been off my meds for about 2 months now, and haven't noticed much difference other than now I sleep all the time. randomly I will pass out beyond my control and sleep for a few hours then I will wake up for a few hours alternately and randomly. I literally have no control over my sleep patterns, When it's time to sleep I fall asleep even when it is inappropriate. I do not drive so no worries there how ever I have fallen asleep in public.
Also mood swings? what mood swings? I have no emotions and I haven't been feeling them for almost a year. Well maybe that's a tad of an exaggeration I do have them but they are so weak I can barely tell. I should be depressed out of my mind or upset, but I feel nothing. I feel no motivation or even concern. If I feel any thing it's less than human.
Its not good to feel no motivation or concern especially when my situation demands both! I lost all my benefits that I was getting through well fare, so now I might lose everything I own when I can't pay bills. I finally just got back on med's yesterday but only to find out I lose my health insurance tomorrow. I did re apply but who knows if I'll even get it again.
I don't know. I know I need help but so far nothing has helped I'm not even very hopeful of these new med's I was put on. I will of course still take them as I have no choice but to do so. If something doesn't change soon I may end up on the streets and homeless.
My family is un sympathetic, they think I'm just being lazy. And they don't think I'm mentally ill, because I don't appear mentally ill to them. They also for some reason think I'm better with out my meds. well I've been off them for 2 months and there's nothing better about me. I still have no emotions, no motivation and lack general concern.
Did you have emotions and motivation before the diagnosis?
as far as the sleeping disorder, my doctor told me that bi polar often is accompanied with sleeping disorders. Although the passing out randomly is pretty new. When I told him that it wasn't really like any bi polar I've heard of he insisted that it was bi polar and that some times bi polar changes into something never seen before. I didn't quite understand his explanation but he was just a regular medical doctor so I think he just didn't want to undermine the psychiatrist's diagnosis.
As for my psychiatrist she only see's me for 15 mins at a time so I'm not sure how well she grasp's what exactly is going on. I've asked many times to be institutionalized but she insists I try this new medication before going.
sorry I can't think of anything else. You really have had a tough time.
Hugs, MG
Not sleeping is a major sign for me that mania is coming, so I use sleep medication to try prevent it. But you don't get the mania and you don't get the depression, you seem stuck in the middle with nothing but sameness.
All I can suggest is to keep a daily record and detailed description of it to tell your pdoc in 3 weeks and make her listen to how it is for you.
Hopefully someone else has some suggestions. Best of luck!
In my experience this is a symptom of depression and even though you may not experience the traditional high they come in all forms. My mother is also bipolar and her mania's are so mild it is simply happiness. I assume you are in America so it may be difficult to get treatment if you have lost the motivation to maintain your lifestyle
Much of it can be alleviated by the things that you do and the way that you think. There is plenty of info on the net, but if you need help I can point you in some of the directions that helped me to deal with it and roll with the punches. Love and courage. xxxx