I understand how you feel but try not to compare your life with everybody else's. Just work on yourself. If you focus on yourself as much as possible and start changing things in your life everything will get better. Work on becoming the person you want to be.

It sounds like you are having a particularly bad day, so I hope it gets better for you.

I can tell you that good friendships happen when people gravitate toward each other because they find one another positive to be around, and because both put out the effort to be a good friend in return. The world doesn't owe us friends, we make friendships on our own, based upon our character and personality and behavior. It's important to be the kind of person that you would want as a friend.

Similarly, that also can be the types of things that either bring us closer to family, or pushes them away.

If you call someone your boyfriend even when he treats you like dirt, that is a problem. Strong women do not stay with men who treat them badly, and complain about that treatment rather than change the situation. We don't get to complain about the things we can change.

If a person sees her life truly as you describe yours, she may have some things to work on. Life is hard and life is never, ever fair, and all we can do is decide what we want and then figure out what to do to achieve those goals.

Being a mom who doesn't 'suck', as you say, would be a great goal, and it's one that people would stand up and take notice of.

You can have a better life despite being bipolar, but no one make that happen but you. Make sure you are doing everything you can to address your medical / mental health issue. Are you under the care of a good physician who you respect and listen to and follow the advice of? Do you have a counselor who understands bipolar and, again, do you listen and take the advice to heart?

I've had two bipolar boyfriends, and I used to work with people with mental health disorders, including bipolar. I know that life isn't easy, but I also know that it can be manageable if you are very determined to make it so. You have to know that no one owes you anything and that only you can make needed changes.

I am going to work on making my life the best it can be. I know I have no one else to blame for the way my life is. I want to blame everyone else but it is my fault. I need to love myself. I do love myself. I am going to be okay. Thank you guys.

You have things to work on. I completely understand. My wife does this between me and other people, worth me always being on the worst side of it. This includes the six time molester neighbor she knows. I have no idea how to help you, but I do feel the same way. You aren't alone

you really need to focus on you and how you can make your life what you want it to be and not spend so much energy comparing yourself to others, whether they be your sister or strangers. We're each individual people, we're not meant to be exactly alike or the same as others. If you take the energy your using comparing how great she is, and spend it taking your own stock in life, seeing what you can do to make yourself happier....then you might actually be happier.

If your boyfriend is so mean, maybe he shouldn't be your boyfriend. If you need something to give you joy and a "pick me up" try Volunteering. Youth groups, Sr. Centers, ASPCA (animal shelters) there are many opportunities out there where people would love your help and time and they are very appreciative of it.

Who cares about your sister, worry about you and your life, find ways to make you happy and let her live her life.

Take care,

Brave, last week I was in the "pits" still am, but moving forward. anyway, this is a quote that was in my "Fear" post...I hope it will help you. I don't know how you feel, I do understand the position, My dear sister had So Many Friends, was a cheerleader, smart and beautiful...me, the total opposite...I hope you will find way to sit quietly, and think about All the strength you have and what you accomplish each day...you are unique, as your sister is....as we all are....

LivingWater 3 days ago Someone printed this quote on DS
"Don't compare your insides to someone else's outsides."

When you are battling depression a life will look bleak and it can lead to making comparisons... wishing that your life were as perfect as the perception is of another's life... all we can do as humans is work on what we can control and that is ourselves... your low self esteem is causing you to stay with an abusive partner... maybe start there.... love yourself enough to leave... be your own best friend... stop self talk that is unhealthy... speak to yourself like you would to someone you love.. it starts there... as you love yourself, you become lovable and then people are drawn to you as a person that believes in themselves.. being bipolar although difficult is treatable... keep working with a doctor or therapist to change your patterns of thinking... if you can't afford therapy, read get books at library... everything might seem overwhelming but start small.. change what you can control... baby steps will lead to a better life.. I know you may not believe it but your sister has a chapter in her life she may not be proud of... no one is perfect.. ((hugs)) polar

I can only echo what others have said Braveredhead it seems when we are down that giving into comparison and a whole bunch of other negative thoughts takes over. Change the things that aren't working for you! One step at a time build a life you want to lead (((hugs))) it's worth the work but it isn't easy....

I'm sure much of this is exaggerated. She probably isn't as great as you think and you are not as bad a you think. She has flaws, too. Nobodies perfect. It is clear you have low self esteem like I do. That's rough. You have good traits we love you here. Big hugs.

I think everyone else has said what I wanted to. You can't compare yourself to others not even family. You need to try hard to determine who and what you want to be and then work on that. And if your boyfriend is a jerk, you need a new one. Don't stay with anyone that doesn't cherish you and treat you well. Bipolar or not we are still people and deserve to be treated with kindness. I only have a couple of friends and they are so busy we don't talk much. So don't feel too bad no one calls me either!! I just make sure that I stay in touch as much as I can and go from there. Then when they do call it's a surprise and great. I hope you can start really loving yourself and realizing what a great person you are!!! Hugs.

Thank you all. I love myself. I love my life. It is broken but I am working on mending it.

I shouldn't have gotten upset about this it is silly