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This is long...sorry...
Thursday 9-20, we went into hospital day surgery for a "short procedure" to remove some pre-cancerous lesions. Almost 3 hours later, the doctor left the operating room to talk to me. He had to take a large area and send it off to pathology and wanted to take out all of her lymph nodes in her right groin. We had agreed to this possibility prior to surgery, but he needed to talk to me anyway.
The biopsy was very close to the urethra, but he didn't want to take all of it because she would have to have an ostemy(a bag to collect urine outside the body). He said that we could use radiation to that area if the surgical margins were closer than 8mm.
After looking at the nodes on the right side, one of those nodes was positive for metastatic cancer. In that case, they automatically take all of the nodes on the other side and send those of to be studied. She was in surgery for 6 hours. We won't know for about a week whether or not those nodes had cancer also. We will find out if she needs chemo at that time also. At this time we know she will need radiation to her right groin.
For those that know me, I treat cancer patients with radiation everyday. We got to come home from the hospital today, with 2 drains coming from her abdomen that I have to empty every 2-3 hours.
She has congestive heart failure and will have swelling in her legs after the radiation, even though she already wears prescription hose to control the swelling from her CHF. She has already fought and won a battle against Hep C and now this.
I have cried a river of tears these last few days, but really lost it when her nurse wheeled her out of the hospital and we got her into the car. I looked at the nurse and spoke the words "my mother has cancer" for the first time.
She is a fighter but I am scared. I believe in God, but I am so angry right now. She is only 54 years old. This just sucks...how much more does she have to go through???
I'm sorry this was so long, I just needed to get it out. I won't even be allowed to treat her at the cancer center. Although I understand the reasons why, I feel so helpless. We have 4-6 weeks of healing before we can even start on the radiation.
I feel like I know too much and can do nothing. I am just treading water. I have called my doc and got approval to use my PRN valium for the next few days.
I'm so lost...so tired...and so angry.
Thursday 9-20, we went into hospital day surgery for a "short procedure" to remove some pre-cancerous lesions. Almost 3 hours later, the doctor left the operating room to talk to me. He had to take a large area and send it off to pathology and wanted to take out all of her lymph nodes in her right groin. We had agreed to this possibility prior to surgery, but he needed to talk to me anyway.
The biopsy was very close to the urethra, but he didn't want to take all of it because she would have to have an ostemy(a bag to collect urine outside the body). He said that we could use radiation to that area if the surgical margins were closer than 8mm.
After looking at the nodes on the right side, one of those nodes was positive for metastatic cancer. In that case, they automatically take all of the nodes on the other side and send those of to be studied. She was in surgery for 6 hours. We won't know for about a week whether or not those nodes had cancer also. We will find out if she needs chemo at that time also. At this time we know she will need radiation to her right groin.
For those that know me, I treat cancer patients with radiation everyday. We got to come home from the hospital today, with 2 drains coming from her abdomen that I have to empty every 2-3 hours.
She has congestive heart failure and will have swelling in her legs after the radiation, even though she already wears prescription hose to control the swelling from her CHF. She has already fought and won a battle against Hep C and now this.
I have cried a river of tears these last few days, but really lost it when her nurse wheeled her out of the hospital and we got her into the car. I looked at the nurse and spoke the words "my mother has cancer" for the first time.
She is a fighter but I am scared. I believe in God, but I am so angry right now. She is only 54 years old. This just sucks...how much more does she have to go through???
I'm sorry this was so long, I just needed to get it out. I won't even be allowed to treat her at the cancer center. Although I understand the reasons why, I feel so helpless. We have 4-6 weeks of healing before we can even start on the radiation.
I feel like I know too much and can do nothing. I am just treading water. I have called my doc and got approval to use my PRN valium for the next few days.
I'm so lost...so tired...and so angry.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
Be strong for your Mother..be there for her when you can
Do not lose your hope in the Lord !...I know it's easy in times of woe and stress to forget, HE is with us , every step of the way
Many hugs
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My hopes and prayers are with you and your mother and family. I am so sorry huh.
The way you thoroughly and carefully described your mom's situation and especially the "we have 4-6 weeks of healing ...." illustrated what a close bond you have with your mom. What a fantastic daughter you are!!
The best gift you can give your mom (and yourself) is super duper self-care. Don't neglect healthy eating, sleep or exercise. Do you have a counselor, therapist or pastor you can meet with for strength? I know the most comforting thing my daughters could do if I were in your mom's shoes is to take good care of themselves.
Is your mother a believer too?
You and your mom are in my prayers. Take care.
May God bless all of you and help you through this difficult time..xo
On one hand it is good you know so much as you know what to expect. On the other, I certain understand your frustration and too much knowledge can make for a lot more worry and anxiety I suppose. I am so sorry. Healing thoughts to you and your mom.
My mother had cancer too, and it is very hard and scary.
My prayers are with you & your family
comforting hugs
I am very sorry to hear about what your mom has to go through. This is a terribly frighting and painful thing.
Your mother and your family are in my thoughts, prayers and meditations. Try to hold strong to your faith it is what will pull you through, and don't be too concerned with being angry with God (the Gods), he (they're) use to it and understand.