I feel like I am loosing my mind and that i will colapse at any moment. I feel like i am trying to chase this high and I can't quite find and I have killer tension headaches. Sometimes I take shots of alcohal just to try to take the edge of my racing thought and tense feeling away. I dont even wanna drink, just the only thing that is around to take the relief away its more of a swig than a shot, but whatever sometimes I have to do that a couple times a day. I have no desire or crave alcohal but yet I know i am craving something and I am not quite sure what it is. Everything in my mind is soo random,....random silly thoughts. I can feel the tension now and I wish I had some weed so my head would stop hurting and crazy motions in my brain would settle and I could think clearly... I don't know what to do to make it stop, I wanna sleep but I can't and I have sooo much to do. I need something to make me better, but like I said I dont know what it is.. I just wanna feel normal, not overly happy overly down. I want to know why I am feel like this and what this feeling could be.....could I be on a manic trip I dunno....my mind is movinga million miles and minuite but yet I am not getting anything done...just stirring faster and faster the thoughts in my brain......SLOW down I say but it just moves faster and soon enoug I will crash...I HOPE!!!!
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