Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I feel like I am loosing my mind and that i will colapse at any moment. I feel like i am trying to chase this high and I can't quite find and I have killer tension headaches. Sometimes I take shots of alcohal just to try to take the edge of my racing thought and tense feeling away. I dont even wanna drink, just the only thing that is around to take the relief away its more of a swig than a shot, but whatever sometimes I have to do that a couple times a day. I have no desire or crave alcohal but yet I know i am craving something and I am not quite sure what it is. Everything in my mind is soo random,....random silly thoughts. I can feel the tension now and I wish I had some weed so my head would stop hurting and crazy motions in my brain would settle and I could think clearly... I don't know what to do to make it stop, I wanna sleep but I can't and I have sooo much to do. I need something to make me better, but like I said I dont know what it is.. I just wanna feel normal, not overly happy overly down. I want to know why I am feel like this and what this feeling could be.....could I be on a manic trip I dunno....my mind is movinga million miles and minuite but yet I am not getting anything done...just stirring faster and faster the thoughts in my brain......SLOW down I say but it just moves faster and soon enoug I will crash...I HOPE!!!!
For me, I had to go to a pschy. Dr. and have him put me on med's because I could not stand the mania anymore. I do not know if you are able to do that. Or like it was suggested, go to a hospital, they cannot bleed blood from a turnip. So at least you will be on your way to recovery.
I know what you are going through and how scarey it is, but you are going to have to find someone to stop the merry-go -round, or you will truly go crazy. I know how hard it is. But Med's and a good Dr. that I allowed to get to know me, "now that is the hard part" being honest with a Doctor.! In anycase, I have been able to bring mine under new management. God's and medicine made the difference for me, that and all the knowlege that I could find out about this dis-ease. So you will have to see what works for you.
Good luck and let me know, Kase