I have been here with my friend most of the night and today. According to hospice nurse she is actively dying. I asked if we will get another Christmas together and she said no. So I guess I have no choice but to be present and just not let her die alone. Her husband is a total wreck he just can’t deal with it at all. So I spend most of the time alone with her. I realize this is a BP site but that is out of control too. I don’t know if I can do this but I just have to it’s not about me I get to see Christmas and she won’t. I guess I can pick up the pieces than. Well I got to go. Namaste Pema.
I just got out of the hospital. It is my first full day out since my best friend died. They added some more meds I wasn’t to crazy about that but I don’t think I’m thinking right I’m so damn angry it’s not funny. I’m so pissed people are celebrating when my friend just died. I just want the world to stop. I stopped by to see how her husband was doing and that wasn’t a good idea....
What Happened to Jewelz? I need Jewelz. I miss her.