Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Today I feel like I've hit rock bottom. I posted this before but it isn't there anymore.
I'm coping as best as I can. Bipolar seems to be difficult to treat and comes in different severeties. Going through all the trial and error in finding what works is exhausting.
I'm just so tired of this disorder. I'm tired of feeling worthless and scared. I'm worn out by the suffering.
May everybody have a good evening.
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
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...and another day closer to Fall! Tra la la la la...Next month there is a Sasquatch Festival in my city! We're excited to go and get our picture taken with Bigfoot. Really!Have a great day, everyone -
We think the world of you around here! Keep going one baby step at a time and all of us will be clapping and cheering you on....
But the "rock bottom" days do not last forever. And best of all, I don't feel like I have a "character flaw" and am defective anymore. Most likely some genes are the cause of this crazy disorder and I am learning to see this as an illness to be managed as best as we can - just like diabetes. But BD seems to be more nuanced and harder to treat. So it does take lots of trial and error and I get those frustrating and exhausted days too. There are so many factors to contend with. But you are so worth fighting for.
Be gentle with yourself. Hope you can work with doctor/therapist on a plan so you feel more in control. Hope your SAD light is working!
I've learned to love rainy and overcast days if I can stay warm and dry. Hope you are warm and dry and a bit happier today. Take care!