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What you are describing sounds like a mixed episode to me, and antidepressants are the worse things you can give to a bipolar in a mixed episode, this is not on any sort of mood stablizer.
My question is, are you currently on a mood stabilizer? If not, you need to be on one ASAP, as well as an antispsychotic such as Abilify or Seroquel.
Just some food for thought. Please try to take care of yourself.
Sorry!
About eating valium.. I'm not sure what that would do to you. Doesn't sound good. I wonder if it isn't making it worse to self medicate like that.