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maybe OT because it's SchizoAffective

malibumark
malibumark
I find can't find myself in peace a lot.
Sometimes - i will have a moment of peace
then I will get a clear sense of self -
and it wil last for like a couple seconds
and then I will be nervous - I will go back to worry
or anxiety - I don't have the access for how
to think without moodiness -

I need to learn to be quiet - and let myself
listen to the moment and try to give to the moment.
I know I don't need to be perfect, these are just thoughts.

peace,

Mark
dobiedots
dobiedots
Meditation?
You are probably too hard on yourself (not that bipolars do that!).
Enjoy your peaceful moments and go with it, without trying to analyze it. F L O W with it.
chilvr
chilvr
i don't think this is ot...i know i feel the same way much of the time. i think this is more a symptom of how our thinking is affected by mi, whether it is bp or schizoaffective.
hugs and puppy kisses
dobiedots
dobiedots
Aw chilvr...puppy kisses! That is so sweet!!
I will join you in a dobie slobber for Mark.
malibumark
malibumark
haha ok i laughed out loud at that! Thanks for the kisses!!

Back to you! :)
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
I get this way, too. The anxiety can be sooo intrusive.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
There is a lot about Cognitive therapy and mindfulness on the net... It might help you sweetie

Big hug of calm for you...xo
malibumark
malibumark
thanks Sensitive, thanks Jan!
GildedLily
GildedLily
I struggle with anxiety and a longing for peace too. A lot. If I push through my days and block the "ruminating" the anxiety will inevitably rear it's ugly head while I am sleeping - nightmares. Or, I will finally be overcome by it and just explode.

Yoga has helped me some. It sort of clears the mind and helps you focus on breathing and your physical responses. Swimming is great. Honestly, I don't want to listen to the moment. That is why I push myself to exhaustion so I can sleep well and not have to be alone with me. Reading, games, cooking, cleaning - anything I can do to keep me from having to think.

Sorry, Mark. I know that is not a helpful answer. Just want you to know you are not alone.

You deserve peace. My sense of you is you are one of the kindest people on DS. I hope you can see that in yourself.
malibumark
malibumark
thank you SO much Gilded. You are very very kind!
I like what you wrote. It gave me a sense of what to do too.
SO it was helpful and I appreciate it!

Peace,

M
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