I had posted yesterday about how sad I was and then last night things went so far south. I am stunned at how my mood changed, I didn't think it would be that fast and extreme. From what I remember my bf and I had a disagreement about hanging out with some friends this weekend. Before I know it I'm screaming at him and throwing anything I could get my hands on. He called the cops on me. They said keep your space from each other the rest of the night. Well he was outside for quite some time so I went into the living room to get my computer but then I had to ask where he put the cord. He flipped out barging in the house saying I was to stay in my room and he was calling the cops again. I lost it beating on the walls saying I wanted to die then I took couple of handfuls of pills. The cops made me go to the ER. It was so frigging difficult to answer everyones questions on why I did that. I don't know, I was angry and confused.Today isn't much better...I'm still screaming at him in between sleeping. He called my doctor but didn't ask for someone to call back which just seems stupid to me if he is so concerned why didn't he ask to speak to someone. As of now I don't know if we are going to see our friends tomorrow, but the humiliation of canceling is there.