How many of you have people you can really talk to? I have two. My best friend and my husband...and right now neither one is available and I feel alone. I've been crying for most of the afternoon, thinking of self harm, and every other negative thought you can imagine. I just think i need more help than what I'm getting sometimes, but then wonder if it would do me any good if I did have more of a support system.

There are some things you just don't want to share with other people. Those deep dark thoughts that you know people would think you were really crazy if they knew went through your head. I don't really know what my point in this post is...i guess i feel i can post my feelings freely hear and not have to worry about what people think.

Well I'm feeling likee what that person said in a previous post...that this is as good as its going to get....and that doesn't feel good enough for me. I don't want to die, i'm not ready but i don't want to live like this anymore either. ....I'm tired of meds getting tweaked all the time too...i'm just tired.