Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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tats69 12/21/2009

I am feeling totally overwhelmed. I took a klonopin. I cannot stop wondering how it became all of this?? I can hardly handle any kind of stress. I can't handle alot of noise in the house or I feel like I have to leave. I cannot stop thinking that I am going to die young....I have panic attacks about it. I am on disability but miss working.....I feel like I have lost my identity and that no amount of counseling is going to help. I've been going off and on for yearrrrrs and I stop because I obsess over what we talk about. I want to bake freakin cookies right now and can't get pull myself together to do it and my kids want Christmas cookies. I am falling apart here and the few people I do know really don't know what to say to me anymore. Oh my god what is happening to me???

deleted_user 12/21/2009

i go thru this and it does pass... not soon enough. i pray it passes for you quickly.

deleted_user 12/21/2009

I have issues like this too tats. Like gabesmom said, it will pass. I hope it passes quickly.

*HUGS*

vickybea 12/21/2009

you're not very well right now it does get better l've been there, at my most unwell if my neighbours made a noise l would jumped so l do understand how fragile you feel. Get well first, feeling lost and close to dying is the illness making you feel worthless its not real its a mood swing even though its all consuming it won't last, keep talking to your therapist about this you need to let it out.

deleted_user 12/21/2009

This happens to me all the time. Usually lasts a few days and passes. The klonopin really seems to help too.
Good Luck! Hang in there : )

deleted_user 12/21/2009

oh tats...a big hug for you...i so know this feeling...and this state....i think most of us too....and yah, it's like we feeel so alone in it because our normal friends, don't really understand what we're going through, and don't know what to say to us....but we are all here for you tats...we do understand....and we care and love u....we've all been there....i feel like this illness has swallowed me whole, and swallowed huge parts of my life..i feel like i land...or look back and say ,,what the fk has happened...where am i, and how did i get here...and then i start beating myself up, because i didn't take the meds for so long....but anyway....we are ok, we have to be tender with ourselves....

this illness is a battle..and sometimes it's really scary...but what we can do is make sure we take our meds faithfully, and if we rfeallly start freaking out...get to the pdoc, or go to the hospital so they can adjust and tweak, or change our meds.....also, just getting our sleep....that is so essential to counteracting this state we get in.....maybe taking a walk.....just trying to concentrate on our feet hitting the ground, or the crunch of our feet on the snow....

sometimes just stopping and doing breathing...slowly , slowly breathng in, and then out...

i hope you feel better tats...hang in here and talk to us....i send you a big huge hug...it's gona be ok....just hang in there.....here for u anytime you need someone to talk to just message me....big huge hugs and peace 4 u sister...love, maggie

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