Big hug for you Krystal... Try and be a little patient... If you need in patient care I hope you'll go to emerg... It can make a big difference, faster
Don't take a permanent solution to a temporary problem sweetie... Depression lies to us and tells us we've been like this forever and that there's no way out... That's not the truth though... It's a treatable illness...
Bless you...x

Hi Krystal,
I don't know you, nor do I know your medical history or anything about ketamine infusions. I never even heard that word before. I made this account two minutes ago, and am offering any input I can because there is no coming back from suicide. You think you want an end, but you don't. You want to feel better, to be better.

I wanted to die so badly last year, I held on by the tiniest things, anything to keep me going. I was put on Lithium, after a few weeks, I wasn't as dead inside.
Recently, I don't know your take on OTC medicine, but I bought Relacore diet supplements at my local pharmacy, not even for the purpose of losing weight. These pills enhance your mood & energy. They make me happy, and maybe they can help you too.

Hopefully this lengthy comment will make you feel the slightest bit better. Like I said, I'm new here. Good luck on your day to day life, sending well wishes.

Krystal. I know the feeling of wanting to commit suicide. I empathize with you. However I know too that I am so glad i changed my mind. I don't know if your depression is making you feel the way you do. Conversely can't rule out that possibility either. I do know I feel you need to talk to your pdoc or some mental health professional who you trust and you feel can help you sap. I wish you wellness.

I can relate to you sweetheart. I have a few attempt under my belt, too. I said the next time my meds stop working that's it for me. Let's not do that and find the cocktail of meds that does work. It's great you are reaching out for help. You are a very cool person for doing that and reaching out. Always try to get as much help and support that you cam. You are special and deserve to live. I'm tellin ya, get that cocktail of meds squared away. You will feel good soon. We just have to play the fuckin' waiting game. xo

Krystal I know. I was just feeling that way the day before yesterday. I started thinking about my only daughter and how our relationship is next to nothing and how I had nothing and the feeling, the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach got deeper and deeper. I started to realize that if I kept thinking about her and about all the crap that's happened to me that I would feel worse and worse so I started thinking that what I was feeling, were just Feelings, and that feelings change, minute by minute, day by day and that I could at least change what I was thinking about and shift it from negative to positive. I accepted that I was feeling depressed and just started making myself think of things that are good...the sunshine, a beautiful cat, I am warm and not homeless, I have food. This is what helped me. I hope that you will reach out and talk to someone. My thoughts are with you.

I'm so sorry to hear this Krystal, I am days late and hope you check in with us. I can understand how you feel and empathise with your decision if you do decide to go to Belgium. I hope you are able to fnd a solution in america. Ketamine seems to promise great things, I am sad it didn't work for you. Hugs.

Krystal just hang in there.sending lots of of hugs. If your that bad off please go to the emergency room

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