Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I'm pretty sure I have learned helplessness. I know there are things that need to be done but it's very hard for me to come up with motivation to do them.
I'm writing this because I had terrible nightmare last night relating to me not being able to take care of myself. When I woke up, I layed there for awhile listen to my cat snore. I found that comforting.
I'm working on getting a self esteem, something I lost a long time ago. Before Covid-19 hit, I had a good thing going. I had been working a job for a little over 3 months and I really miss it. I saw my boyfriend once a week and go to a "fancy" restaurant once a month. Then the virus showed up out of the blue and took away my job. I rarely see my boyfriend, instead we talk on the phone every night(I am thankful for that). Many things are shut down. The human race has lost a lot to Covid-19.
My thoughts are things like, "why should I get another Job? It will just get taken away." Also, "Why ask for help? People won't want to." I get the heebie jeebies about doing anything anymore. It's like my brain was put through a blender. Most of the time I sit and watch tv. Goof around on the internet. I don't know what happened. I used to be much more productive. I know it was a series of losses that brought on my nervous breakdown in early 2004. I was never the same after that.
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
These drugs suck. I lowered the dose which seems to be helping.
You mentioned your nervous breakdown in 2004. That was when my neurological condition started and changed my life forever.
Having bipolar and bipolar meds suck. I would suggest starting with baby steps. Think about what you would like to do and start off slower than your initial thought. Discuss your concerns with your therapist if you have one.
In the meantime, listening to your cat snore is very therapeutic. Listening to my rats I find very therapeutic also. They don't snore though :-) LOL
Let's all hope for better things for Jenn!
For so long too I've lost my 'mo jo' to do much of anything....I'm even finding it hard to get out of my house....was talking to my therapist about that, she said it's the end of the winter. So now, I make a point of looking out side at night to see how long ''day light lasts''....makes me feel a bit better.
Nothing ever stays the same, one minute, and then the next is different....when push comes to shove I bet you put good effort to make things happen....for me, I'd like to get the 'things to happen' without the 'shove'! :)
Have you learned to not care, or not be "willing to do" or not be as quick to do things to combat the lack of motivation depression can cause....perhaps. The world is different, very different. The World got a kick in the ass about how some things should be done and how some things should be respected. We've learned some things, and we still have many more to learn. The thing is, the World is not going to go back to pre-2020 norms.
So what do you do? You figure out new ways to live life, new ways to motivate yourself to want to do things, because there are things that you can do. Learn new coping skills to help yourself get out of the hole and want to participate in your life again.
Your definitely not alone, a very large portion of the planet has went through the same things you're going through in some capacity or another....you have to take some time and steps to figure out what your new normal looks like and how you'll participate in your life.
Take care.
Covid has made things harder and a lot of people are struggling with mental health 'issues'.... Tough times right now ... a lot of suffering and changes that we've not seen before
This is a good place to come and talk about them.... Big hug.... xo