Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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VioletOctober 04/21/2015

The perspective of a sound mind is something I've longed to experience for quite some time, For once, I'd like to wake up knowing who I will be that morning. I want to live life with goals I know I'll still want to achieve the next day; to feel just as motivated as I was yesterday, or last week. I see people graduating college, with a proud group of supporters to admire them starting their lives. I look in the mirror and see one person who wont make up their mind long enough to get through a semester. The next day, I look in the mirror and see someone who can achieve anything they put their mind to. Sometimes, I'll see a face filled with imperfections, and unwanted pounds of fat on my body. The next day, I see a beautiful woman with great potential. It's always the same person in the mirror, but, it's never the same mind. For once, I'd like to want to finish what I start, and feel the same way about life that I felt yesterday.Can anyone relate?

SunCloudJD 04/21/2015

Big hug for you sweetie... For sure we all have our good days and days that aren't so good... I can surely relate

You'll probably get more responses if you repost this under the 'general bipolar' category ....Not too many people come up here...Big hug...x

darkenedheart 04/21/2015

Yes I can definitely relate. Its such a struggle when this illness makes our personality express itself in such extremes. It makes it harder for us to achieve. Keep trying and persevere. I wish you well.

VioletOctober 04/26/2015

Thanks for the advice. Wasn't sure where to post. I still get confused with the boards lol. I'm glad I'm not alone. I wish you both well.

snakegirl 04/27/2015

Wow. I read this and completely saw myself. I don't know who I am going to be day to day, if I will be superwoman or bedridden, if food will taste like Heaven or I will refuse to eat. I may have pains all over my body or feel like flying. I may spend all day crying. All this despite many medication alterations, psychologist/psychiatrist visits, therapists, changes in this thing or that... and so on. I wonder if there's hope. I know there is, I guess. I've made it this long. I know if I can weather the lows the storms will pass.

tmichelle68 07/17/2015

Yes I can truly relate. My mind is so wonky I never know what day it is sometimes much less who i am that day, or who I want to be for that matter. All we can do is keep our chins up and our heads held high and push through this.There is another side to this and I believe that on that side we will be able to look in the mirror and see our one true self. I also believe that on this side that we will be able to do things like keep goals and feel better every day. I truly hope that you can begin to heal and feel better. Always know that I am always here for you. Lots of LOVE and HUGS.

angiebettin 09/26/2015

This sounds just like me, wow! I feel so much like this. Its that like my self , hate myself,thing its I know I can do it, to a no I can do it. Back a forth. Up and down. Crying and laughing. Boy do I get her.

hplotrgot 10/03/2015

I know how you feel. In others' eyes I have struggled through a lot to make to this awesome PhD program - but then the next day I think I' a fucking moron bc I didn't go to Med School. Then I wake up one day and feel kick-ass, and powerful, and amazing- then hours later I look in the mirror and want to punch it or puke. It's all over the place, even not following my general cycles at times - and Horribly frustrating!

It's always Black/White- with no gray in sight. I either rock or am the scum of the earth. And that sucks. But in a selfish way it's nice to know that I'm not the only one feeling like that... However, I really hope that you can find your inner powerful bitch, kick ass woman, and never put yourself down again! ** If we were only as nice to ourselves to the strangers we meet on here, life would be SO much different!

andrealambert 10/23/2015

Sometimes I'm euphoric and the most confident person every (when hypo-/manic) then I'lll crash and feel disgusting and like hiding. It's part of the mood swings of the bipolar.

Keep on keeping on. There are always the good days to hope for.

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