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Just Lost IT

1PhoenixRising1
1PhoenixRising1
About an hour ago, I just lost it. I only got 4 hours of sleep again last night and I was angry at my husband about something. I was standing in the kitchen holding a spatula and suddenly the noise in my head, the noise of the tv and the guy mowing grass outside was just too much for me, I screamed and threw the spatula against the wall. It put a dent in the wall...i live in an apartment...not good...really not good..I then had my meltdown of insanity.

My therapist has told me just to take the antidepressant until i see the pdoc. My husband is trying to encourage me to do this, I stopped because it started me on a roller coaster ride. I don't know what to do, should i go back on the depakote and wellbutrin or abilify? Or all? I'm going to ask him if he can try me on soemthing different next Friday, so I've been hesitant to restart...but i don't need another hospital visit...what should I do? I try to get advise from pdoc office but since this is first visit they wonn't tell me anything.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Do you feel better? Sometimes loosing it makle us feel better and releases the pent up energy that we have, as long as it is controled of course. Try your best to get enough sleep, not getting enough is a beeperes worst nightmare, see if you can get a nap in throught the day if you can too, that will help make up for the rest you lost the night before. As for medicine advice I leave that up to the professionals
1PhoenixRising1
1PhoenixRising1
Well after a good cry and a cleaning frenzy in the house I feel more relaxed. Maybe tonight I will get some more sleep.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I did these kinds of things in a manic rages. An AP helped me with that. I think the Abilify definitely sounds like a good idea. Depakote, too. Not Wellbutrin by itself, though, definitely. Talk to your pdoc soon and work carefully with him/her.

Good luck. It's terrible to feel out of control like that.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I have had so much stress in my life lately, I am surprised I haven't hurt someone.

I came back from dinner tonight and just wanted to drive in traffic.

I think our feelings are very common.
Shelly4
Shelly4
Phoenix, I am so glad you came here to vent and maybe let go of some of it. You can fix a dent in the wall. I learned well how to fix huge holes in the walls from banging my head into them and fisting them.

If I can have one spaz attack and a good cry, I chalk it up to overload and fatigue. It is when I go on and on and destroy something that I know I am in trouble. I dont know if you should mess with your meds to much at this point. By stopping them, you have already thrown yourself off. Maybe wait until you see your doc and let him determine what you should start back up on.

So glad you feel better and were able to vent some of your frustration on cleaning. At least now you can look and see you used that energy to be productive. CUDOS to you girlie...............xo