Huge hug for you sweetie.... You're way ahead of yourself... You don't have any answers yet other then a shadow...

Try and reign yourself in.... I know it must be difficult... Waiting can be so hard...

Do you have a therapist that you can maybe see a little more over this period... Do you have a prn medication to take??

I think this would be a hard time for anyone... Bless you....xo

hi, I'd agree with Jan, some doctors often aren't particularly good at explaining stuff and sometimes their body language leads us astray so hold on until you know for sure.

And if it is bad news, it may not be as bad as you think - many cancers are now treatable ..don't give up hope. Mark

huge hug for you too..... I've had 3 lumps in my breast and as I'm at a higher risk I too thought the worst... thankfully they were benign... but it didn't stop the worry beforehand.... nothing is going to take that worry away until you wait for the results.... but like Suncloud says... you're a little ahead of yourself

I wish I knew what to say... I have many cancer survivors in my life..... one who did have lung cancer and had her lung removed and that was over 5 years ago and she is healthy and happy and living life to the full..... I don't think a shadow or polyp per se is solely indicative of cancer?.. but as humans we do tend to think the worst (that's all of us)... the waiting game is unpleasant to say the least

one thing I have learnt is that cancer is a word and not a sentence... please don't automatically think the worst......it's hard not to I know

modern medicine is fantastic these days .... my best friend is a cancer survivor of over 20 years... my sister 10 years.... that word is just so frightening..... and I know you are scared... I know I was when they found nodules on my thyroid and I had to wait for the results....... benign again.... see the trend here? again please just don't think automatically of the worst case scenario

again treatment has come on leaps and bounds and the survival rates are much higher than they were so between taking treatment and offing yourself.... you would be denying yourself getting better... IF that becomes the case

I agree with Suncloud again.... do you have a therapist that you can open up to and talk to through this difficult time?

keep talking with us.... I don't know if I have made things worse and I apologise if I have

Hey openroad I so know how you feel. But dont let the fear win. I know this is easier said than done. My doctor found a grape furit sized mass on my ovary a few years ago. I was told they would remove it in a few weeks to find out if it was cancer or not. Those 3 weeks were terrible.. Your mind goes to the most darkest places and you want that thing out of you asap. Its terrible so I know what your going thru. But the good think in all of this? It was not cancer. It was a cyst. I did lose my ovary but other wise I was fine. So I understand your worry but please know that this could be nothing just a -polyp. You can look back on all of this as a freaking scary ordeal as you live out the rest of your life happy. I hope this happens for you and I will pray that all will be right in your world.

My heart and prayers go out to you and wishing you some calm and perseverance.