Ahh! All to familiar...I was going through the same exact thing last week...it has started to taper off this week, but is swinging me into a depression. I was also listening to music...so loud my ears were popping. When I get like this, I usually have to write in order to try and subdue the feelings I'm having and to feed all of the needs my brain thinks that I want (does that make any sense? lol). I can also relate (disturbingly) to the fast emotional connection that you've made...it makes all of my symptoms go from out of control, to there's no controlling them at all. Although I wish you weren't struggling, I do find comfort knowing there is someone out there experiencing the same things/feelings/thoughts/emotions. I try and use my xanax very sparingly, but I do find that it helps a tiny bit in combination with the music and writing. I've always kept a journal- even though recently my husband decided to read through it which has ruined it's ability to be as helpful as it has been in the past. I hope this helps a tiny bit- if you need to vent, I'm here! Hugs.

@ktlaura21. I am actually glad you found comfort in knowing you are not the only one, it also comforts me to know there are people like me out there that have to work really hard just to enjoy a normal life.
It's something normal people should really appreciate...
Anyways, i don't do xanax, nor do I take any anti anxiety pills very much, I usually ride the emotions and meditate, as well as cognitive thinking.
It still doesn't help much, hahaha, I have to force myself to control my emotions and urges, I really hope I don't mess this up :/

Your sins are forgiven, now go in peace. :) Sorry ... I couldn't resist.

Meditation is good. I love yoga because it not only quiets my mine but also releases some of that crazy electricity that runs through me from time to time.

Is there a reason you avoid medications to assist with anxiety and sleep?

Yes, I hate how it makes me feel. If I want to change my mood, weed is much better. :)
I'm going to get back on some of the meds I guess, gonan try to avoid anything major, maybe somethin to help me sleep. Havent slept before 5am in a week

Lol babyshelby. You guys need to share some of your meditation secrets...I keep hearing I need to try it, but my brain is telling me it's not going to help...maybe I need to stop putting up road blocks?

Captainquasar...love how you say normal people should appreciate how hard we have to work at this normal life thing. I wish they knew how tired I get struggling through.

Hope you both had a relaxing Sunday...here's hoping for a better week.

Well this is my first day here,and wow I finally feel it's a safe place. It's hard for me to go out I have to push myself to do anything and then again I'm ready to take the world on but check this out only from my room. I would love to make some friends here. As time goes on maybe I can open up more. Wow I have so much to talk about I don't know where to start. Is anyone out there?

I would say get on something to calm you like maybe get some lavendar tea or chamomile or a supplement from a health food store. I hope your doctor gets you on a mood stabilizer and an antipsychotic. I know it is actually an awful feeling to have this happen. Just write your thoughts down and think of it as catching a butterfly. Catch a thought write it down, relax maybe in a warm bath, and then write another thought down. I hope u get to feeling better and are able to get your sensory overload under control. It is an awful feeling.

I know that feeling all too well. I listen to music when I'm like that as well but I do try to listen to something that is a bit more relaxing rather than something that will actually intensify it.

I write down all of my thoughts and feelings and sometimes in doing so I can discover something that is specifically causing me to feel this way.

Meditation works as well.

I know it is an awful feeling and I hope you get some relief soon.

Day 2 now, planning to go see the doc.. and nothing else really planned. I have good news though, a friend of mine is flying in to see me this weekend and I'm taking 5 days off work to spend some time with him. I think it might help having a friend living with me will keep me from bursting out of my crazy bubble.
I'm starting to realize though, I'm head over heals for the girl more because of my mania not my feelings because it didn't make sense to me. I don't really know the girl, she's hard to read, and she hasn't mentioned anything about how she felt. WTF am I doing. hehe... so I'm hoping the doc helps out. thanks for the support everyone, i really need it right now

Wow, you explained what I felt a little over 5 years ago really well. I ended up marrying him, but question that sometimes like now. I believe it was that description of that part of my life that really helped solidify my dx. I think you're doing the right thing by seeing a pdoc and having a friend stay with you. Good luck!

aprilraven,
did u feel you were out of control and that ur mind is rushing through to 6 months from now, and u realize a normal person has their own life and routine, and normally this doesnt break the way we bipolars do it.
I think i need to get the mania out soon as possible so I can at least be clear headed and see how I actually feel b4 I do anything with this girl

Even now, I really have a hard time putting into words what I was experiencing. It was beyond anything I'd ever felt. Personally, I think you're wise to wait until you're clear-headed enough to see what's what with this girl. I wasn't dx'd at that time and had no idea what was going on. It wasn't until a couple of years ago that I was finally dx'd and now looking back I know it was mania talking.

I did it! I just got back from the doc, and he prescribed 100mgs seroquel. Ive never tried it, but it sounds scary on the web. :) Hopefully a good sleep tonight.