ok so i'm not dead. i found a place to live. it's weird being on my own, but i like it. i'm getting used to it. i like my new city and i'm getting used to it. i haven't got out too much, but i'm learning how to get to a few places and there are definitely places i want to investigate when i get the time. i'm doing okay with my classes (i think). i'm a little overwhelmed on the school front. and the work front. my students take a lot of time and energy, but i seem to be holding on okay most days. i'm doing pretty well with my meds. i'm not doing so well with my diabetes meds and i'm thinking about maybe getting a service dog. what do you all think? they're trained to detect fluctuations in blood sugar, get food in an emergency or contact emergency services. i've had a couple of scares - really low blood sugar. i didn't notice until i was nearly unconscious. no bueno. no bad highs lately, just the worrisome lows. plus it would be company. i think maybe i'm a little lonely. but i don't know what the rules are for service animals. there's a pet deposit here, but is that waived for service animals? i really can't afford a pet deposit. the budget is super tight.

i'm kinda proud of myself though. it's been a couple of months and i'm here and this is happening - grad school, a place of my own. independent living. i kinda feel like this is what it is to be an adult. though i worry about crashing and landing in hospital every day. and my anxiety is spiking like no body's business, but for now i'm actually managing. now, i just need to make it to the end of the semester. one foot in front of the other!!!