It’s been a while. I forgot to post because of the crap that I was going through. Last week, my dad almost died. He had bleeding ulcers that he wasn’t aware of, and it almost cost him his life. Thankfully, they found it fixed, it and he’s like a new man this week. It was so scary. I drove my car down state to  the hospital where he was. It was a six hour round trip. I took a huge chance because my clutch is going on my car. I did it anyway, because I knew that that was the only way I was going to get to him, and I knew that I had to be there. I prayed really really hard before I took off. And it made it there and back thank the Lord.  My dad told me that he is going to give me his wife’s car, because he is buying a new one. He knows that I’m in a really bad spot financially, and I am really grateful for his help. I feel kind of crappy about myself having to except help from my dad at my age. 

 Also, I haven’t spoken to my sister in a month. When my dad was having his lung cancer surgery, my sister and I had a falling out over the phone. She has had me blocked on her phone for a month. She is just a mean nasty person. My mother Told me that my sister doesn’t want to speak with me anymore because I called her “conceited and self-centered”  I spoke nothing but words of truth. I guess the truth hurts. She told me to go f*** myself  that day. But I haven’t written her off. So anyway that’s that.

 I had a second epidural injection on August 31. The steroids gave me terrible side effects, and I was only pain-free for about a week. I’ve decided I’m not doing it again. I am trying some physical therapy.  I also have an appointment with the pain clinic this week to see if there are any other things I can try to help. I hurt so bad I can barely walk today. I am in such pain that I can’t even describe it. I’m still making myself  go to the gym and do whatever exercises I can  manage to do. My pain dr told me to keep trying to work out if I can because if I stop moving, it is probably going to be even harder.  I have also been swimming whenever I can at the pool. My psychiatrist thinks that I should apply for disability. I went to the Social Security office, and they told me to apply online. Does anybody know what I need to have When I apply online?

Tomorrow, I have an appointment with the clinic that did my neuropsych testing.  I am seeing the provider for counseling as well as to learn the results of my testing.  It should be interesting.