Strap on pair of shoes and go for a run! A little fresh air is always good.

It might be good to challenge yourself to just take a few steps outside and build it up before this develops further.

I'm in shielding my self but even walking in the garden to get some fresh air helps good luck.

Big hug Believable... I struggle with that even more right now.... I agree to get out of the house even just to go into a yard or like fish suggested 'a few steps'

I go to a coffee shop every morning I can. It forces me to get up, get dressed and be a little social and start the day. I work 4 days a week but on the days off, early, early I go to the coffee shop. It starts my day with action and getting ‘out there. ‘I also have found a park nearby that I love going to. There’s not much I can do because of the pandemic but this park is my option and I find it so relaxing and inspiring. So I walk four laps there too. I hope you are taking into account that there’s not a lot of options for us during the pandemic so please don’t be hard on yourself we’re all dealing with that. I do hope too that you can find things that inspire you. Peace.

Try painting outside it’s a great way to get out of the house.. or try going on a run!
x kayla

I walk to the mailbox. It's quiet away's from our apartment. Hugs.

I think a lot of people are feeling this these days. I think going for a walk helps a lot. Even a short walk.

My motivation is absent. I will take the trash out so that makes me get up. Today I went to my mental health clinic and told them I am not okay. I said I wanted to speak to the nurse since she knows me and instead got a lecture about how talk therapy with a brand new caseworker who I've never met will help. I told them I have a psychiatric illness which talk therapy does not cure. I told them I was decompensating. Like WTH ? I am sick of everyone and everything. Staying in bed away from people helps me cope. I cant keep doing this for months.

Believable talk therapy can help... Venting can help... We don't have a curable disorder but we do have a treatable disorder

There is treatment for severe depression sweetie.... Maybe call your pdoc and let him/her know how badly you're feeling... Big hug....xo

I’m wondering if there is another mental health clinic you can go to? Maybe there would be better people at another place? Even if you have to travel a bit further to get there? Is that an option? If not, I think it’s great you are going anyway. Sorry about there lecture. That’s ridiculous. Adults who treat other adults like bad children are just really sad messed up people. I don’t know if someone mentioned trying to go to a regular GP? Just a thought. Maybe they could help more. I’m really sorry you are struggling and it sounds like your symptoms are getting worse. It does sound like you are taking active steps to try to make things better for yourself Including reaching out here. Good for you. Just mentioning this, when I was at my worst I got myself into a program at a medical school hospital in a city where they offered sliding-scale treatment with people who were technically doctors but were basically doing a residency at this hospital. They were monitored occasionally. I had the best therapy I had had up to that date with a really awesome guy who did CBT. If you aren’t familiar with it, which you might be, if you look it up, it could be helpful. Way more than talk therapy had been for me, by a LONG shot. But I also had to get on meds that worked. They weren’t what I take now but they worked for a time. Anti-depressants that wouldn’t send me into mania b/c I went to a doc who know my family history so avoided those. Thanks God.
Those two things, meds and CBT, saved my life at that time. The hospital I went to wasn’t something I would have known about, like something like that existed, unless someone told me about it.
But if it weren’t for the meds the CBT never would have worked. So, I think that’s #1.

Oh. But, I think that hospital also offered psychiatrists who could have prescribed meds as well. So, just another thought. (Also my phone is busted hence the typos.) Hang in there. Or reach out. 911 is always an option if no one is listening and you can’t find help. Just a reminder that I need to remind myself of too.

SunriseBay wins !!!!
Huge point score for relatability ---> a friend of mine knocked on my door this morning with delicious cupcakes. How awesome is that? I thought it was the postman and asked if i needed to sign for something. She said yes and I said "is it certified mail," and she said yes. I got nervous, real nervous. I'm worried I'm going to be sued, so I'm not signing any certified mail green cards - oh no. LoL. I was really worried (there's a back story to that). Anyway, cupcake therapy got me through the first half of the day. I feel better than yesterday, and its probably because nothing pissed me off. My rage meter is on high which I believe is a sign of mania - most anyone would be angry with what's going on in my life. The being sued deal is related to my gaslighting HOA. Geez. They've brought me so much stress. If I can get repairs made at my home that they caused, I'm putting my place up for sale and moving out. I got a home loan and need to keep my s--t together so I keep my job which I need to get the money from the loan to buy a new house. I've not needed to change my medication in a long time. Yoga used to fix so much yet my living room is not usable since there's water damage. Part of me wants to blame ALL outside stressors, yet I'd be in denial if I thought that nothing else is going on. I'm somewhat scared to talk to my psychiatrist again. I'm going to semi-chew her out, and then ask her what she thinks might help. I'm coming up short. Dont think I need an antipsychotic --> anyone here think that makes sense ? Already take an antidepressant so fooling with that seems dumb because I'm probably easily irritated because I've set off my mania even though I'm exhausted and just want to be a vegetable in bed. Today was really pretty good.

I just read what I wrote. I sound a bit scattered, right ?

Take short steps. Try opening a window at first. Then, go out on your porch....Feeling fresh air is good for the soul.