Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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So I don't know why exactly I am writing this. Although I feel very content with the way life is going right now , sometimes I sit back and wonder how different things would be for me if I had chosen another path. Plagued by what if's and incessant questions screaming to the top of their proverbial lungs, What if I had gone to college fresh from high school?
What if I never met the key people in my life. What if in the end I am nothing but a disappointment and a failure? I am so scared right now and haven't got a clue as to why.
Maybe I'm just nervous.
I feel good inside , thinking clearly and rationally but I also feel shut down. Empathy was never a strong point for me. I guess being at Peace is a lot more work than I thought.I know I'm alive....but am I really? What constitutes life? Is it a pulse , growth , intellectual or physical? What is the life "condition" all about? I guess the bottom line for me right now is Why am I so much happier when I am alone?
What if I never met the key people in my life. What if in the end I am nothing but a disappointment and a failure? I am so scared right now and haven't got a clue as to why.
Maybe I'm just nervous.
I feel good inside , thinking clearly and rationally but I also feel shut down. Empathy was never a strong point for me. I guess being at Peace is a lot more work than I thought.I know I'm alive....but am I really? What constitutes life? Is it a pulse , growth , intellectual or physical? What is the life "condition" all about? I guess the bottom line for me right now is Why am I so much happier when I am alone?
Likeing to be alone can be very relaxing sometimes and help lead to contentment but so can helping others and it is good to get involved with reality every now and then.
I think its a good thing when one enjoys their own company... I find I need quiet times .. but I also enjoy sharing my life with others when I am feeling ok... Also when your alone there are no expectations from people... you don't have their energy to deal with... I'm not sure if this helps but just know you are not alone with questioning... ((hugs)) polar