I had another crappy day today, I found out I had the diahrrea yesterday and today missed water aerobics class because of it and I LOVE Aerobics class, also come to find out my daughter with no prior dx of asthma has a full blown asthma attack in gym class today, and my stomach flu sick ass spent the entire afternoon/evening in the ER waiting for them to tell me that they think it's bacterial and give her zythromax which she can't take because she's already immune to the dang shit. Are we allowed to swear in our journals? I wish I could just scream ARGGG!!!!! I also missed my first medicine dose and have to wait for my second one because I forgot to take my meds with me when I went out to breakfast this morning and didn't know I'd be stuck in the ER all dang day! On top of that I am still overly paranoid and the only thing my pdoc did about it was give me ambien, she thinks it's from me not getting good enough sleep that's causing my mania. dang when she's got it all wrong my bipolar is causing the paranoia. No, when I ask for some ativan for my anxieities I get ambien to help me sleep better dang pdoc isn't listening to me worth a piss, and I am feeling pretty shitty right now.