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I guess I'll have to go look at other Topics , and figure out what you are meaning to say

I thought of Heretic when you mentioned living in the car.
When was he on here last??

I just found out that he was here yesterday; still struggling.

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I'm concerned because he seems to have left the group. He lives in his car and expressed despair in many of the discussions. Does anyone keep in touch with him outside of the group?

ummmm...just to clear things up...you have some of the story but nobody really knows the whole story...she's a true enigma of our times...I wish her no ill will...she carries enough already no matter how much people try to support and try to help steer her here...a classic case of "you can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink"

I do hope she makes a personal breakthrough soon...here's her profile page...it can't hurt to let her know you're concerned...I find it touching so perhaps she will too. http://www.dailystrength.org/people/542520

Fdlstx kinda pointed it out here, but I'm just going to be more obvious....Heretic is a female. I'm not trying to take away concern or be negative in any way!! It's just one of those things I have to comment on. Please don't be offended.

Heretic is a wonderful woman and a friend of mine. She is in trouble and I'm very worried about her.

Not sure what water we are trying to make her drink but Obviously some of us have our own "problems" to deal with.

agree lily. what a rotten thing to say. jeez. :(

I do remember someone on here offering Heretic a free place to live and free food if she wanted to make the drive to her home.

Heretic is a devastated, homeless, bipolar-severely depressed, with no family, friends, she is too tired to fight - SHE has tried and wished and lost for years.... No love, no help, no human being to kiss and hug her, or help her fight. She is exhausted, and needs our nourishment, and encouragement - she has no hope, we need to spoon feed her hope to HOLD ON.... she would rather die, and with this illness - someone CAN do it - with a 5 minute decision.... we need to remember that!!!!!

I know my best, productive manics were in my 20's - so, even though we are bipolar, lots of our members are stuck in hopeless doom, no playful manics, no parties or huge sources...


Unless you've walked in her shoes, or lived in the woods alone as a child, walked in the desert to work every day for a shit job, to pay a shit hotel...... finding pdoc's and meds with no support, insurance ... I remember when she started on meds, and she has said, and stayed on them determined - her life SUCKS - but the pills help....

I'm alone in this world - Mommy dearest has only been around and helpful the last two years - so from 18-50, no family - always alone..... to proud to ask for help, you don't want people, you don't want charity, you can't handle it.....

I would like to say - if you have not been hopeless, isolated (not by choice) homeless in the desert - you shouldn't say anything negative or judgemental...

I love Heritc - I want to shake her and get her out of the dessert, but you do not kick people when they are down....

I've been abused - but I cannot imagine her journey, and he total hopeless and she puts one foot in front of the other - well, I think (for a change) we should love and hug her today.... I GinaWonders has nothing but concern for our girl... she deserves better, and she can't reach it, and we can't give it too her!!!!! Damnit...

The last six weeks with no circumstances - no problems or drama, my depression was as bad as heretics - daily life!!!!!

We want to fix our friends, our family wants to fix us - sometimes a Hug and acceptance and understanding is all we can do.....

If you have Faith - Heretic feels abandon, if you pray, pray harder for her- she is suffering + homeless + desert = horrific pain and loneliness....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMYz5SteBBY

Thank you every one for caring. Life is hard. The worst part about it is the heat. I had a pdoc appt today and they gave me the number and address of Hope of Southern Nevada. I will check it out. But I am not to hopeful about it. I tried the Nevada Housing Authority and they said you have to be able to pay for utilities to live there. I could never afford that. I will keep living one hour at a time, trying to stay out of the heat as much as possible. It's very difficult to find a place to park in the shade, and even then it's incredibly hot. I appreciate everyone's concern. I am in the worst shape I have ever been. I have to force myself to eat. And sleeping is iffy at best. I will keep going till I lose my car, and then I will check into the hospital as suicidal. I don't think they will help me tho, my meds work fine and all they will do is refer me to the shelters I have already checked out. At least I have food stamps and meds. Thanks again to everyone who cares.

I hope that you got a referral to Hope of SN based on your circumstance and that they can truly help you. Stay safe.

I don't get why you aren't on SSDI. And why the dessert?

Great posting Gina. Heretic is a special wonderful lady who shares her thanks daily as she can. That support of encouragement means so much to her right now. I would hope people choose their wording with a bit more thought. No she is not able to cross the state for free food, I trust she can find a place of shade and some cool water to drink, and thank you to the reply clarifying that Heretic is a female.