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I'm NOT strong enough

ATOWifeofJason
ATOWifeofJason
Oh Lord...I'm not strong enough. Found out today that Jason is having surgery on his shoulder next Tuesday and mom's biopsy is next Friday. I fell to my knees and sobbed while holding her on Saturday. I just kept repeating that I'm not strong enough and I can't handle this...I felt so selfish because SHE is the one that has gone through sssoooo much over the past few years. She's survived Hep C treatment that she got after a hysterectomy at age 24 (with no viral count being found for 2 years) and now congestive heart failure at age 54. Her mother...my Nannie passed from CHF 5 days before her 58th birthday.

Please God watch over my family...these are the two most important people in the world to me...and when either of them leave me I will have to go impatient. I can't handle this...I can't.

I'm sorry to have such a pity party but I feel the...maybe not depression but overwhelmingness(made up word) closing in around me. I have been so good mentally for such a long time and feel like I am failing. I just needed to get that out...I know others that are struggling and it hurts me to be the one now spiraling out of control.

I am angry because I do my best to help people every day, I can fix some people with CANCER for goodness sake, or at least make them more comfortable...and I can't fix my family...much less myself. Even if you are not religious...please send good vibes or whatever it is you believe in our way/my way...I'm not asking for replies here...just take a moment to send it our way...I would really appreciate it...ATO
justletmebe
justletmebe
Honey, you are strong enough, you can handle this, there are alot of scary things going on right now for you, it would make me feel like I'm spiraling too.

Just one thing at a time, one event, one hour....your gonna get through this and so will your family.

(((prayers for you and your family))))
Cammiecat
Cammiecat
you have done so much for so many, now it is our turn to do for you. Let us hold you up in your time of need. Thinking of you and your family. ((hugs))
deleted_user
deleted_user
sending healing vibes.
deleted_user
deleted_user
This sounds awful.. I'm so sorry. My prayers go to you and your family.. may the peace of God hold you up.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug of comfort for you... 'Let go and let God' sweetie"... You don't have to fix anything nor can you...accepting what we can't change is a huge gift to ourselves..
You and your family are in my prayers...xo
deleted_user
deleted_user
This is no pity party- vent away, please. ((((Hug))))
surferchica
surferchica
I am glad you came here to share and let it out. It sounds like a terrible burden for you and all concerned. My heart goes out to you sweetie.

Hang in there. Take time to take deep breaths from your belly. take life one moment at a time. You know how to do it. You have more strength than you think.

I will be praying for you and your loved ones. I hope your mother will be ok. Let us know how it goes. xo
deleted_user
deleted_user
(((((((((Hugs))))))))))) honey and prayers said for you and your family.
XO
deleted_user
deleted_user
So sorry, that really is a lot to handle.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yeah, that really is a lot, and I hope the good cry helped and was cathartic. Not a pity-party at all, as wizz said. You go on and talk. You ARE strong enough, you can do this. You'll surprise yourself.
MageMichael
MageMichael
I know how you feel, I am always worried about my parents cause I will just have a meltdown without them in my life. My Dad and Mom are like my best friends ever.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Super hugs to you, A.
ATOWifeofJason
ATOWifeofJason
A very tearful and humble thank you to you all.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sending you good vibes and positivity and strength. And venting and feeling sad is totally normal. That's what we do here! :)
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