Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
i haven't been able to sleep much lately because I'm afraid I won't wake up. I know...opposite problem than the usual here. but It's the first thing I think about when I lay down at night. And it keeps me up. My heart has a funny rythym to it. They tried to test it and got 99 errors during the test(technical bug). so they have to do it again. And on the other fringes of my circle of neghbors and friends, there has been so much death. I can't help but think I'm next. So, while I plan things for the future, I plan for a future without me too, like who to give all my stuff to. I'm THAT afraid.
and both of my docs are on vacation this week.
and both of my docs are on vacation this week.
Once asleep, I hate waking up! Especially depressed - sleep is relief and soothing......
Now for you, Fear has many acronyms, my favorite is
False
Evidence
Appearing
Real....
You need to challenge your thinking, your brain chemicals and obsession are working against you! Meds help me get stable and have better choices, but I have to Challenge the crazy thoughts - at least call them that!!!! If you think of how many thousands of nights you haven't died - mathematically its doubtful!
If you give your thoughts free reign, and keep getting worse - well, you'll keep getting worse. Posting is excellent, your willing to hear others idea's and suggestions - to me, this means you don't want to get worse!!!!
If your thoughts are powerful, you might new professional help - whether pdoc or tdoc - even us, is much better than staying stuck with bad thoughts!!! ((((BIG HUG))))
IT gets better, and the" it" is YOU!!!!
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I am afraid of the dark. It is necessary for me to have lights, in the hallway. My partner can't sleep in a room that isn't dark. Makes things a challenge.
It is the feeling of suffocation that bothers me. Wouldn't be surprised if I am also, afraid of death. If it goes completely dark I panic. Can't run out to find light, fast enough.
Most of the time it is good enough to have the hall light on.When I am going through a tough time, I have to turn the bedroom light on.
Know that my solutions, probably won't work for you. Just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.
Being terrified of going to sleep is probably one of the worst things for a person with a bipolar disorder to deal with.
For me I go south, pretty quickly when my sleep cycle is messed with.
Good luck and I hope you can have a good night, sleep.
Will be thinking of you.
This is what I tell my kids: "Think of good things and dream about them!"
It will all be OK, beggarseam.
I want to be hypomanic again. I'm crazy.