Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I don't know why I lie. I I lied that I used to do drugs in high school.
I guess I lied about the drugs is because I'd rather be a drug addict, than admit that I'm crazy.
Things were so horrible in high school...but now it's been 2 years since I graduated and I lied about the pregnancy.
i lied that the pregnancy test was positive. The thing is, I thought it was positive. I dreamed it was. But, in reality it wasn't. I had to go to the doctor to check that it wasn't-that it was a false positive.
I lie that I'm not getting depressed. I am supposed to go back to school next semester- in a little over a month. I can't be depressed. My parents are paying for it, and i don't want to disappoint them by failing school.
I just want things to get better. I hope that this episode just lasts a few more days- I have to get well.
I deleted my facebook account because of all the things I used to say. I lost my close cousin because of what I said when I was unwell. I apologized so many times, but he hasn't forgiven me.
What should I do to make myself feel better?
Please help!
I guess I lied about the drugs is because I'd rather be a drug addict, than admit that I'm crazy.
Things were so horrible in high school...but now it's been 2 years since I graduated and I lied about the pregnancy.
i lied that the pregnancy test was positive. The thing is, I thought it was positive. I dreamed it was. But, in reality it wasn't. I had to go to the doctor to check that it wasn't-that it was a false positive.
I lie that I'm not getting depressed. I am supposed to go back to school next semester- in a little over a month. I can't be depressed. My parents are paying for it, and i don't want to disappoint them by failing school.
I just want things to get better. I hope that this episode just lasts a few more days- I have to get well.
I deleted my facebook account because of all the things I used to say. I lost my close cousin because of what I said when I was unwell. I apologized so many times, but he hasn't forgiven me.
What should I do to make myself feel better?
Please help!
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
I'm sorry you going through such a struggle right now..
You need to see a doctor preferably a psychiatrist to start getting help sweetie.. Be completely honest with the doctor.. They are there to help us not to judge..
Depression is an illness that needs treatment.. You're self medicating and it's not working.. A doctor will assess you and help you to find a treatment that will help you get stable..
Don't beat yourself up for being sick.. You aren't bad you're unwell right now.. Reach out for help Episode it will be there for you when you do
If you re post this under the general bipolar category more people will see it
Big hug of comfort for you...xo
I'm sorry you're ashamed of your diagnosis. I hope that, in time, you become more comfortable with it. Not that you have to share it with anyone, it's none of their business (except perhaps your parents).
Was the false pregnancy during high school or college? So, I take it you're on holiday break from college and will be returning after the first of the year to new classes. Is that right?
Nearly one-third of all college students seek mental health treatment at some point or another during their studies. It's pretty common.
You might want to register with your school's Office of Disability. Accommodations can be made for you (like extra time for assignments, etc.)
Just take it one step at a time. You'll make it!
I wasn't self-medicating. I was lying about the drugs. I just would rather seem like i'm a drug addict than bipolar. That was in high school. I am hoping to see my psychiatrist this week or the next. And thank you for that tip.
@babyshelby The false pregnancy was during my break from college. I was working for a year to "find myself" It worked in some parts. I think I will check out the office of disability.
Thank you all for caring and not judging me.
The fact that you are not on meds Is creating more problems for you than you need. Get in to see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. If you continue to feel bad and think you might hurt yourself, go to the ER.
Things look brighter once you start on the road to being stable. It may take some time to find the right meds for you but it'll happen. Hang in there and come here often for support if you need it.
recognition is the first step in being able to correct it. i hope you get in to see your shrink soon, and i hope you'll talk to her/him about this.
I'm on meds right now. I need to be on a stronger anti-depressant though. And possibly get on an anti-anxiety med.
Thank you for your advice!
Thank you for understanding. It means a lot to be in a community that doesn't judge and cares!
Hon if your not under Professional care, it would probably be a very good idea to get some help from a Therapist or Psychiatrist. They can help you understand the importance of truth and the consequences of lieing and the damage it does to your sanity.
Take care,
Kat
It IS a self-protection thing to lie.. It's messed up, but I do it anyway. Now, I just blog everything(it's on private) so I don't have to bother my family- who will just drive themselves mad with worry.
I do have professional help. My next therapy apt is next saturday!
Thank you for your advice
no one sat down with me and tried to explain their illnesses. they'll find out when the time is right if need be.
I go with humor and smiles and hope they don't pry or try to find holes in my bullcrap reasoning for when i disappear.
BP can lose you some relationships, I lost a best friend for my actions and i think about him often. as much as i blame him for leaving, I know I made him suffer over the few months before I was finally diagnosed and he had had enough. It's unfair, but life is unfair and ultimately I realized I wasn't his best friend, just a friend he was willing to drop even after 9 years of closeness. He did me a favor by leaving.
It's a horrible disorder, isn't it?
9 years is a long friendship to just drop somebody out of their life.
I just hope we can both find a medium for most of our lives.
Medium: content, not manic or depressed
This saturday i went paint balling with some of my cousins.After moving around for just 5 mins, it got so hot I started throwing up in front of everyone! I was so embarrassed.
Nobody really asked what happened, just whether I'm OK or not.
I thought it had to do with me being bipolar or something, (had been depressed this month), Turns out, it was very dehydrated, thats it!
I kept explaining to everyone that I have a really warm body and I'm always wearing t'shirts even in coldest weathers (lies) just to cover up.
I'm still going next week, just hope I don't share my lunch with them this time.