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Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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HannaHana 09/22/2008

That's all it takes. I can spend an hour talking about how horrible I feel, or hear a terrible story. I could watch a heart wrenching movie, listen to a special song. I could see an old couple still walking around holding hands, a marriage, a funeral, a memorial.

But once someone says "I love you" to me, that's it. I'm hysterical crying. I think it's b/c they're saying it just to make me feel loved... but I don't buy it. I don't know if it's because I'm overcome by the fact that someone does love me, or if I'm overcome by the fact that they'd just say it b/c they think it's what I want to hear.

At least it's always at the end of the conversation. That way I can cry for whatever reason without having to hear the "it'll be alright"...."Hang in there"...all the bullshit that they've been trained to say.

I can take it from someone I truly believe loves me. It's the people I'm not accustomed to hearing it from that gets me.

deleted_user 09/22/2008

to people who take there Christian beliefs as seriously as it is ment to be taken. We can ,yes tell a complete stranger I love you .It is what is known as agape love .it is the love of Jesus for Mankind that lives in our hearts ,that makes it posable for us to love all mankind.

HannaHana 09/22/2008

It's not strangers either though. It's Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Friends. People that I don't regularly hear "I love you" from.

I can't explain why it makes me cry...happy b/c I'm loved? Or sad b/c I don't believe them.

deleted_user 09/22/2008

Agape love as in Corinthians? How many people take that chapter out of context from the chapters before it and following it and laud it to the skies! ROFL at your asses. Please please please do your own research and stop following what some twisted man who's only motivation is to feel the rush of power in his small belly is saying it says. He has no right to interpret because IPeter 1:20 says it interprets itself! The chapter markings and verses should be devoid of all authority because they were added by a politico/religious aristocracy bent on control.

Sorry for the rant, but glassy eyed xians who follow blindly what other teach need more help than we do.

ok ... back to the OP ... The reason you may feel like this is that you don't love yourself. I have noticed in here that a lot of us have this problem. I do to. I don't have a clue how to overcome this problem, but accepting it is one step closer to dealing with it.

btw ... can anyone tell I'm in a moderate to sever mixed episode today? I feel like absolute murderous hell right now.

deleted_user 09/22/2008

When you're feeling certain ways, it can be very hard to believe or remember that people really do love us or that we are actually loveable. I feel a lot of love for the people on this site & others that have to live this particular life & that includes you.

When people that mean a lot to you say, "I love you" and they don't say it a lot, it can tear you up. Speaking from personal experience anyway. Love ya, Lo

deleted_user 09/22/2008

I was brought up in a big family and we were taught that if you loved someone you said it and you meant it. If you didn't you shut the hell up. Not to be rude, but "I love you" are three of the smallest and biggest words in the biggest language. They are beautiful and should be cherished when they are said with true intent as the form of love which they are meant as. Which is I'm sure the way your family means it when they say it to you Hanna. It should only be uncomfortable if it's people throwing around big words they don't understand. If it's it's sincere cherish it, and if you mean it and you can, I would say I love you back (if you do). It feels good. ;)

HannaHana 09/22/2008

I agree Steffy that "I love you" should be said only when meant.

I only hear these words from certain people when I call them. There are NO, not a single attempt at them contacting me. Sometimes I wonder if they're rolling their eyes when they do talk to me. I'm a little self-conscious that I come across as mentally ill...like there's a big red flag in my speech or mannerisms.

deleted_user 09/22/2008

I hear ya, Hanna. I hear people that say it all them time. I'd have people question my love for them because I didn't say it that often. Not that I didn't love them, but I figured it i said it everyday, it would become less meaningful.

Besides, when I do say it, I usually have a cold or sinuses flare up. LOL

HannaHana 09/22/2008

Yes Quacked...my boyfriend insists on saying "I love you" after every conversation. It definitely takes away from the meaning of the words. It's just habit then.

I just hate that I get so overwhelmed by those 3 little words, and I can't decide whether it's for good or bad.

deleted_user 09/22/2008

Personally I think it's for the good. If they truly love you like you said in your post, it should be overwhelming. It has more meaning.

I've always felt loved by the people who showed their love, not said their love.

deleted_user 09/22/2008

I get the same way Hanna. But when my daughter tells me i am used to it so it feels great but when others tell me i do tend to get all emotional not knowing if it's true or not.

HannaHana 09/22/2008

I could put on the happy phone voice, no problem. Tell the truth about how stuff sucks, but I'm still trucking along. It's almost as if hearing those words just rips the mask off my face/voice, and I just can't handle the conversation anymore.

what's worse is when these family members get into how God and Jesus love me, and then that they love me. I can't take that $h*t.

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