Hi Jenn~~

You sound like you're under a tremendous amount of stress. I hope you were just being dramatic when you said "I wish I could put a gun ......" That's disturbing.

You can share more if you'd like. I'm listening.

I hope the part about putting a gun to your stepson's head was just expressing your extreme rage and frustration. If not go to your nearest Psych ER asap!!!

yes I am being dramatic but after the things I found out about him today, I'm thinking he might put a gun to my head. Actually he strikes me more as a strangler. He's big. He's ill tempered. He's also stupid. this makes him very dangerous. So if he wants to kill me, I'll let him. He can spend the rest of life in prison.

Yikes!! Do you seriously fear for your life?

a little. I've seen enough crime show and stories about people murdered by a rogue family member. It's all right. I'm doing what I can to maintain a good relationship with God. I haven't been in church for awhile because my husband didn't want to go. I going back by myself. If they join me great.
I'm not saying my stepson would kill me but it's an eerie feeling I get now that I think about what kind of person he is. It's just best to be cautious around someone like him.

I hope your family drama works itself out in some relatively functional and peaceful way. Maybe family therapy of some sort would help resolve things. I am assuming your stepson still lives at home with you both.

My prayers are with you all & for your husband to a successful & complication free surgery.

I'm going to mull over this and get back to you.

Yea I have to agree with the first two posts. The whole killing thing or anyone isn't cool. You should be "wishing" for him to get well or something positive like that. But I understand, I don't condone what you said, but I understand. Extreme frustration does that to us sometimes. I'd find something relaxing that makes you laugh, something humorous that stimulates positive thoughts. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband. Don't be afraid to seek professional help for yourself, it's the best thing I ever did when I got that irrational. Remember, Anger clouds our thoughts and minds and enables us to make decisions we will probably regret in the future. Much love towards you and your situation. Peace.

John Wyatt.

Can you distance yourself from this person? They sound dangerous.