Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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grenadine 09/15/2011

I am such an idiot and I'm crazy and no one is ever going to love me. I just wrote in my journal about how I see myself living in the future. I see myself living alone being alone and committing suicide, maybe sometime in my mid thirties. I'm not strong enough for this shit I'm so weak and pathetic. I am so angry I just want to hurt myself, I want to overdose on anti anxiety pills. My mom says I have to forget about men completely because I obsess over their approval thanks to my evil fucking dad who should rot in hell. Does anybody else get this way when they are angry and depressed? I'm going to fucking flip. I'm so disgusting.

deleted_user 09/16/2011

I am glad to hear that you are feeling better. I hope you can overcome your self hate. That is probably a hard thing to overcome. You should be proud of yourself for making the effort to get better.

Hugs
Andrea

deleted_user 09/16/2011

Hi-Yes, I know about evil rotten dads who should rot in hell.

You are not pathetic. You must find a way to heal old wounds and rebuild your life.

grenadine 09/16/2011

Thanks guys, I appreciate your words. I feel better, still a little depressed today, but not so much hating myself, just... almost sick but without the symptoms... achy and vulnerable.

morrisbeal, I think you are right, when I get in that place, I need to talk to someone to get out... I didn't have anyone to talk to last night which made me feel alone and that's why I came here. I can definitely see that my emotions take over sometimes and I don't think logically... it's so strong sometimes, it's bad.

Hugs back to you, thank you.

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