thanks, benadryl doesnt do anything to me.... but neither does my ativan which is all i have.... the only thing that helps me sleep is eating a bunch of food (I'M FAT) because ive been stuffing myself with food for the past 3 days and i cant stand myself for gaining weight.

thanks mojopaw :(

dig around for that anxiety pill girl!

You truly are beautiful.

Please know that I have had the same self hate and recrimination...I get stuck in a loop too.

Perhaps try watching something lite--like Monsters Inc or Lilo and Stitch. These movies...and finding Nemo have helped me to hang on. LOL...like I am effing 4 years old.

Do you have a favorite movie or show you can watch? or relaxing music?

thanks surferchica, you really made me smile :)

im gona eat some toast and take an ativan and hopefully fall asleep. thank you everybody, i dont feel like hurting myself anymore. you all are wonderful.

and dont trip off that toast! enjoy the toast!

( i feel you i binge from time to time. and its pretty hardcore as your situation sounds.)

Hi. I am also sorry you are feeling bad. I am on Abilify but I also cannot sleep. I try but all I do is toss and turn. I was on seroquel but they say I was allergic(rash, fever etc) well it is off to bed again. Everone take care and my blessing to all

i am so sorry you feel so badly i also feel self hate often, and i know how destructive it is and how hard it is t get out of.. try hard to keep telling your self that you are worthly of love and self care you are a good and beautiful person.. try to do relaxation breathing listening to calming music amd is possible surround yourself w positive people.it will pass sweetie it will you just have to convince yourself that you are worth it.. if you ever need anyone to talk to i understand