Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
My talent for relationships and professional achievement has suffered a great deal because of the way my mind works.
I have heard the concept of a "playpen" discussed in terms of people's lives in a psychological way.
Currently, I live in a very nice home, in a very nice area, (though it's shared - it's still nice and I am lucky.) I have a job - and I have money for small expenditures. It's not all that I want- but I am lucky considering I have no backup savings anymore- and no major career. I collect SSDI
and things are 'covered.'
Today I started to notice myself getting really arrogant about what I have.
I have had this happen before - where I have achieved something for myself (like when I had a job at a major corporation and a home fully paid for.) Once I had the thing, the safety, I forgot how much I'd been through to get it. How lucky I was...I forgot - and my mood sailed high - and I became flippant with it. Like I could do better, with out covering my bases.
When I had an amazing job and an amazing home my Bipolar mania had me blow it all away. I forgot that I had been helped to get that kind of 'playpen' and I didn't appreciate it. The bipolar mania can wrench you from relationships and practicalities in a big way.
I suppose what I am saying is, just today I noticed that kind of flippancy returning to me. I can't brow beat - I just don't want to 'fcuk' up again. I want to achieve stuff again.
As Jan once said... noticing stuff so you can nip it in the bud - is a good thing. So perhaps now - with hindsight being 20/20 I can shift and accommodate for the shrill mood - and just gently get on track.
I have heard the concept of a "playpen" discussed in terms of people's lives in a psychological way.
Currently, I live in a very nice home, in a very nice area, (though it's shared - it's still nice and I am lucky.) I have a job - and I have money for small expenditures. It's not all that I want- but I am lucky considering I have no backup savings anymore- and no major career. I collect SSDI
and things are 'covered.'
Today I started to notice myself getting really arrogant about what I have.
I have had this happen before - where I have achieved something for myself (like when I had a job at a major corporation and a home fully paid for.) Once I had the thing, the safety, I forgot how much I'd been through to get it. How lucky I was...I forgot - and my mood sailed high - and I became flippant with it. Like I could do better, with out covering my bases.
When I had an amazing job and an amazing home my Bipolar mania had me blow it all away. I forgot that I had been helped to get that kind of 'playpen' and I didn't appreciate it. The bipolar mania can wrench you from relationships and practicalities in a big way.
I suppose what I am saying is, just today I noticed that kind of flippancy returning to me. I can't brow beat - I just don't want to 'fcuk' up again. I want to achieve stuff again.
As Jan once said... noticing stuff so you can nip it in the bud - is a good thing. So perhaps now - with hindsight being 20/20 I can shift and accommodate for the shrill mood - and just gently get on track.
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
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In all it's splendid colour!!I'm up for a very short time I hope...It's too early for me but I always seem to have these early awake times where I'm not quite ready to get upAnother chore day for me as I didn't get done all I wanted to yestetdayI hope that your day is blessed...xo
Then I notice and can't stop
Then I recognize and try and minimize
A lot of times I can remove triggers and avoid episodes...
It's not all meds - we have to responsible for stuff - When we have a choice...
You have a choice ((((BIG HUG))))
18-42 - money, great jobs, credit, successful, and alone was ok - because I was too busy to notice.
Losing everything going on disability? OMG! Made me realize success and money was my identity.
Now - success to me, is having choices! When out of control, or very broke, no choices - everything is worse.
The good old days weren't always good, and tomorrow is not as bad as it seems!
Today is a sick day for me, accepting - regrouping, resting (LOL like laying in bed for days was not rest! but it wasn't, I accept I need to not beat myself up today)
you should try not doing it too! ((((BIG HUG)))
Try : )