I guess I am not one of them, I am afraid to share my humor because I don't want to offend anyone.

Because we'd like you to not be so lonely and angry! That's why we want to talk to you... You have Severe depression, and a very hard life - you belong here with us.. You fit in..

That you can't heal or shake the doom, we understand that too..

Do I want you to crack a joke, and go to a NAMI meeting, pick up the phone and make some calls - well, I will be happy to nag you for another year - you belong here...

So, find something else to feel bad about - your plate is heavy and sad.... I would be MORE WORRIED, if you were dancing, and thinking this pain was OK ... ((((((BIG HUG))))

That being said, I would love to kick you in the ass and make you do SOMETHING DIFFERENT!!!!!! : )

You belong here as much as anyone does we all have are happy moments (have seen yours even) and our sad moments and our pissy moments (I have a ton of those) stick around I for one would miss ya

you're totally one of my favorites heretic, i just wish i knew what to say and how to help you..

i wish that you would believe my nerdy ass when i say i really care about you and i like the feeling i get, the "essence," the vibe..

i know you struggle and i never know what to say, because you truly do have it rough. and i hate to say, " oh i am so sorry " without being able to really DO something!

i want to know more about you and reach you - i just haven't quite figured out how. i would love to chat and goof off chatting or listen to you on the boards and learn more about you any way that feels comfortable to you. i'm all ears.

you know, i first joined a around a year or more ago,... i didnt say a word at first for months... then i finally posted something.. and waited another couple months, as i watched in a catatonic stupor.

i'm new to this whole dog and pony circus... i have had experience with depression for almost my whole life, but i am new to the real deal of mania and hypo ...and you guys hve been the best thing-

i really watched and waited for a long time, i had nothing to say and i was literally as flat as a crepe for almost the whole time until spring and summer came- and then at that point i couldn't hold back-- mania had me in it's grasp and wanted me to burst out all over the page- i had been so gray and cold and nothing for so long it felt.

i'm not even clear on the dates of it all..but i remember thinking you were all way cool and i had nothing fun to say, so i have been there- and been there before the mania really really hit.. though i thnk i had hypo in my life many years before it... but anyway, i have been there even when i wasn't bp.

you are interesting and you do have things to share... you just dont feel good and you have it so hard, and for that i AM sorry.

i wish there was more i could do, but i'm going to make it a point to check with you. i still have my note on the way that says "pray for heretic.." i've been thinking about the best way to do that. i wanted to do something powerful, but i haven't put my finger on it yet.

love and love and love to you. hugs into forever--you are loved and you are cared for and you are liked.

There's not a single person here that isn't screwed up in some way. So this is the spot for you.

To be honest, people who talk about wanting to die burn me out. I've gone through my own dance with death and I hate to relive it. Plus, I've found that it doesn't matter what somebody else tells me. The only one who can convince me is me. This is so the spot for you.

*note on the wall

i feel for you, and i'm very sad you struggle so badly, but i also have to steer clear of the suicide stuff after too many times, and just get quiet.

inevitably, it is all on you, and it'll be the absolute fight of your life to get out of this, but i wish you success and strength and total support.

I dealt with this BS early in BP career, and I learned pretty quick, so you, better move on quick from my comrades................

I totally get it. I share your view of people complaining about things and feeling that if only you were in their position..... it sounds so much better than what you are going through right now. I don't post much when I'm feeling suicidal anymore either. It just seems redundant. I get the same responses. So I really do understand. But you are a unique, beautiful, individual person. I would hate not to see you here. Why would anyone want to talk to you? Like now, to comfort, to care for you, to share a laugh, to see how you are today, maybe just the everyday mundane things, but it is the sharing that takes place that is so important. Heretic, we love you. I'm sorry you are feeling bitter and angry and I too often feel jealous. But for now, please accept my ((hugs)) and know you are not alone.

I'm so sorry you're going through these feelings that are so hard to bear..I know they can be consuming..
I think we handle what we've been given in our own individual ways and I know sometimes we do give the same responses.. Sometimes it's because we don't have answers but we can offer encouragement.. When in the depths of despair the encouragement can sound trite..
You are a very valued member here heretic and I hope that you'll stay.. We do want to talk to and support you.. That's what DS is all about..
Big hug of comfort and a blessing for you..xo

Oh....you don't fit in....hmmmm....wow....I cannot relate at all. not at all...nope....cause I just blend wherever I am. Isn't that right all?
Blend...should be my middle name.

Uh, of course I know what you mean. I started out here causing an uproar when I wanted to just share a treatment (I won't say the "h" word...shshshshs) that I tried and benefited from. I was told I was insulting people and I thought they were insulting me and it went on and on....

it turns out that no one was insulting anyone because each (including me) was just protecting their little comfort zone the best way they could or protecting what they thought was the right way to go about treatment......in a way they believed was right.

so, screwiness and not fitting in is part of being on DS. after a while, things will smooth out, though....I really think so.

well i like talking to you because i can tell you're a good person who is struggling mightily....

I feel the same feelings at times. I know its absolute hell on earth.

((((((((((((Comforting Hugs))))))))))))) for you. xo

and people on DS have different things to say. some are there to make you laugh but if everyone did then they would not be special. some give advice, hopefully if asked, and some just give support by listening (or reading). some vent and give others the chance to respond.
you are ok just the way you are. no need to question yourself.

Well I don't know you Heretic but it is obvious that you are loved. I have seen your posts and see that you fit in the same as the rest of us. We all have our demons. We all have to deal with the hand we've been dealt. It's easier to do it togetheer here in this forum.

Please stay here where you have friendship and understanding. People are unique and no where is that more evident than here. I'm sure you fit in. Give yourself a break. Don't beat up on yourself.

I don't know what you've been through or what's happening in your life now but if you communicate it to us maybe we can help you get a handle on it. I too have to stay away from the suicide stuff as I lost my brother that way but if you feel suicidal come to us and let us talk you down.

Laura

Heretic.....you always have a place in my heart, and you have as much right to be on this site as anyone.

Just because you might not crack jokes , does not mean we don't need you here.

((hugs))