I have BEGGED my psychiatrist to help me. I am a mess. I CANNOT believe that he won’t see me until THE END of JANUARY knowing full well that I am having a hard time functioning. His nurse just keeps telling me he says “just hang on”. And today “he says to make sure you are drinking water”. What the AF?!? I am going through fing WITHDRAWAL. he has ripped me off from two major meds in less than a freaking MONTH!! he says “go to the ER or partial hospital if you are having thoughts of suicide. . WTF does he not understand about I JUST STARTED A NEW JOB AND I DON’T HAVE the luxury of being in the hospital. I am feeling so bad that I am having awful thoughts. And I WILL NOT go to the hospital. They can bite me. I truly wish God would take me. I don’t want to do this anymore.
Are you guys?
I’m seriously doubting my diagnosis. So many of you are doing poorly or struggling. But I feel fine! I feel normal and happy and cheerful and creative. But if I don’t have bipolar then wouldn’t these meds be making me crazy? The thought is there: I am stable because I am on medication. I just don’t know