You sound really in the dumps. Who are you screaming inside to expecting an answer? No need to tell me its just a question you might want to ponder. Your opinion would matter to me if I ever heard it and I care that you are feeling blue. I hope this helps in some little way and your situation improves.

(((hugs)))

That's not true. You matter to us. I'm very sorry you're treated this way. Big hugs.

I remember feeling that way - like I was screaming inside, and was almost afraid somebody Would hear it - it would likely be Frightening to someone else. Me, it was like the (old tv show) Incredible Hulk - calm, and 'normal looking' on the outside but Wild and Angry on the inside.

You've got a lot of unresolved issues, braveredhead, and it's Fair that you have them! A boyfriend and his mom that seem to make decisions and do things without involving you. A son who likely doesn't Understand how much it hurts you not to be involved....those are Big Issues.

Probably a lot of others too, huh? Like when your boyfriend said you were miserable. Doesn't sound like much of a relationship.

Do you have a therapist to talk to? And if so, have you told her/him about all this? I would hope there is Someone (out there, face-to-face) you could talk to who would Listen, someone who Knows you and your son - someone who could give you some good advice about how to get Your needs met, and work on things.

Meanwhile, we're listening, and hugging -

(((((((((((HUG)))))))))))

You matter a great deal to me, Bravered. The fall of one is the fall of us all. Each and every one of us strengthens the whole in our own, unique way. Stay brave.

Gentlest of support while you find your way to a more peaceful place.

Thank you guys. I told my aunt how I felt tonight because I feel like she is always correcting me and won't listen to argree or acknowledge me as right. I told her I just want to be heard and I am an adult and my feelings are valid and a lot of times I'm right. She didn't really agree with me just said yea that's why she does this... Whatever it was. Sometimes I agree with her or get so mad inside I say nothing because I am not being heard then I explode. I apologized to her and thanked her for putting up with me. I need to stand my ground. At least I spoke up. I am not that hard to put up with its just no one listens to me and then they yell at me. I have to repeat myself over and over and I get mad and snap. Because I need to express myself. People always have to be right. I am glad I am having a break from my boyfriend, but it also gives me anxiety. But he gives me bad anxiety bc he is so intense. Sometimes the things he says scares me or I get scared before he talks. I just want to be alone and then he gets mad at me. Then he starts yelling. Guys I just need to get this out there. Thank you for listening!!

Thank you guys! Door I don't get to see my therapist enough like I need. She is always booked up for at least a month everytime!

You guys are awesome!! Thank you so much for your support and kind words! I am so glad your here to talk to

I am having a difficult time. It's getting better though. I am very sad and just got out of the hospital they put me on some awful medicine and I was scared pacing back and forth. It's so traumatic those places to me. They put me on stuff I had allergic reactions to so I couldn't sit still or sleep it wa torture. I am so glad to be home. No matter what I am going to work on myself and my problems at home and outpatient. Anyone ever jus want a break from there mind and I just wanna go sit on the beach for a while