I had a really bad rage about 4 or 5 nights ago and the only thing I could do to keep myself from going completely ballistic was sitting by myself with music blaring in my ears and taking some slow, deep breaths and trying to just focus on the lyrics of the music and waiting for the feeling to pass.

Thanks I'll try that! That's one I haven't tried!

Get a copy of The Anger Workbook and learn about anger and how to stop the rages. I used to rage even when I was younger and wound up physically harming my schoolmates. That helped me stop.

Rage was the primary way I expressed manic / psychotic episodes

They were always self directed, or I threw things , bashed holes in my house walls , smacked my self in the face with a fry pan

The only thing that brought them under complete control was medication

I just grew out of them, I guess I got lucky. Meditation helped out as well. Things don't piss me off as much now, even crappy drivers fail to upset me.

I was an object thrower and severe verbal abuser for many years. I learned a lot in therapy about being mindful. Now I count to 10 and breathe, and if it still isn't better I tell the person I am angry at that I can't do it right now. Then I get some exercise, even a 10 minute walk. If I'm still not better, I write every nasty feeling I am in my journal and that usually does it. It's important to either burn those entries or hide them where no one will EVER find them because they are so toxic. They are even toxic for me to read later.

my counselor, case manager, and pdoc are all trying to get to the bottom of why they have gotten to be so severe. I scare myself sometimes at how out of control I can get. I ruined my relationship with my sister yesterday because of raging at her. ive got to get these under control. Thanks for all of your ideas!

So hard!

What I learned is low self-esteem makes them worse. So anything to be fine to being self-esteem up is a good investment of time and energy.

As others have mentioned therapy, paying attention to early warning signs in what you are feeling etc. Many good books have been written on just this topic.. .

If you desire to change the tools for help are yours to pick up and start using....

Change is the same for us all:

1) Desire 2) Intention 3)Practice

Good luck to you this is such a worthy goal to pursue and perhaps medication could help as well. Why not being your pdoc in on his conversation?

My case manager got me an apptment to see the nurse tomorrow.You have to go through her first before you can see pdoc. Thanks MayB!

Most of my hypomania are rages but I'm not sure how to handle them, at least not yet.

Anger Management. It changed me from a wacko dangerous person to someone who can discuss the problem at hand without screaming and breaking things.
It changed my life.