I agree sweetie. Noone likes to go but I have always gone willingly and never regretted it. It is the safest place to be and it is easier for them to treat you there intensively. Please go, especially if you are having suicidal thoughts. Hugs

I'd go. First time I went I took myself. I had punched my winshield so hard it broke, and all I could think about was killing myself. My wife called the 800 number on the back of my insurance card, and handed the phone to me. They convinced me to go. So, I drove my busted windshield car down to the hospital.

I got down there, checked in, and they appointed one of the hospital security guards to watch me while I was in the ER waiting room, and he followed me into the treatment room and xray room while they looked after my hand. I started to get scared.

As I rode the elevator up with the guard, my stomach was all in knots. As we went onto the ward, I told the nurse I was terrified. She was real nice to me and walked me around the place to show me there was nothing scary in there. Then she handed me some pills to take, and took me to my room.

All in all it was a very positive experience. I hope your experience is as good for you.

The times I have gone it was just fine. Not a lot to do but watch tv but really not bad. Best place to be when you are not safe and need to get your medications tweaked.

I haven't had to go into hospital for many years, I guess I'm just scared.
Thank you for your advice x

Hello Regina,

Hmm... there was several years between my episodes and the few times I stayed in the hospital. I remember the first time that I went into the hospital I didn't even know about mental illnesses at all. So it was shocking. I didn't want to stay and signed myself out untreated, no dx.

The 2nd time was similar but finally after a few days I allowed myself to take the meds and realized that it was a chem thing.

I actually like hospital food so I'm a freak like that.

I went kicking and screaming once.....it was no fun. I wouldn't suggest going that way. I was manic and wasn't thinking straight..
I was looped up on tons of lexapro and xanax. I complained of suicidal thoughts and the pdoc upped my doses and I went nuts.....it took three nurses to hold me down and when they got me down they threw me in lockdown till my mania calmed down then they promptly put me on zyprexa and trileptal. Then eventually those drugs stopped working and I became suicidal yet again.....

You should go and when you get there try hard to get better and on track. Dont be afraid. Fear is the enemy. You have everything to live for. I believe in you. And i believe you are brave enough to overcome your fears and get what you want out of life.

I might add that now I take Geodon as a mood stablizer and am fairly stable......I can get really anxious and paraoid manic though.....that's what the Geodon is for. I take 120 mg's and seem to be fairly droned out. I hate it though......but I have to remind myself what paranoid mania was like and that keeps me to remember to take my meds!

I admitted myself due to the danger I posed to others.