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My Mom is possibly well known to you all as the hoarding, shopaholic that she is. Manipulative, horrible, unhelpful and just....uggghhh!!!
I hate to say it, but I'm just about at my breaking point here. I am having some serious homicidal thoughts about killing my Mom. How many different ways I could do it...and the ways that would make her suffer more. She has/is making my life the worst it has ever been, and putting me on a guilt trip the whole way through. If she were dead, I would have no problems at all....except having to clean up her hoarded mess.
I can't get into too much detail b/c it wouldn't hold your attention for long enough to tell the whole story, but she is making me and my children miserable. I want her to die...and at this point, I wouldn't put it past myself to do it myself.
I hate to say it, but I'm just about at my breaking point here. I am having some serious homicidal thoughts about killing my Mom. How many different ways I could do it...and the ways that would make her suffer more. She has/is making my life the worst it has ever been, and putting me on a guilt trip the whole way through. If she were dead, I would have no problems at all....except having to clean up her hoarded mess.
I can't get into too much detail b/c it wouldn't hold your attention for long enough to tell the whole story, but she is making me and my children miserable. I want her to die...and at this point, I wouldn't put it past myself to do it myself.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
you can get outta there, you can do it.
i know easier for me to say it,
but i understand about the self-esteem...
just keep it, no matter what.
that way you can get out of there
and you will have a fresh start.
a new beginning on the horizon.
My self respect is exactly what my Mom uses to manipulate me.
Believe me, I'm trying to get the f**k out of here. Hoarding is an illness, yes, a lot like OCD. The fact that her granddaughter was just injured due to her inability to get rid of a few pots, pans and cookie jars doesn't phase her. What bothers her is her inability to stack them properly. She doesn't know she has a problem, regardless of who tells her or how many times.
The first thing she said when she walked in was did you find my hamburger? She had dropped a hamburger on the floor a few days earlier and couldn't find it.
My mom died last year. I never wanted to kill her even though she was horrible to me. I have had to deal with the feeling of not missing her. I feel guilty for not missing her.
I would call your doc re an emerg appt as well sweetie.. This is no good for any of you..
Hoarding is an illness that tears families apart.. She can't help it and will need therapy to change..
Even a shelter would be better then having homicidal thoughts and misery .. I hope your daughter is okay..
Big hug for you..x