It beats the alternative? something is always better than nothing and leaving your son with nothing is not good. I am glad you can see that. We are here and always willing to talk. Have a Hug and chat a while...

Jenn, I hate it when I "mess up" with something. It makes me feel aweful and I want it to go away. I think it is natural to feel the way you do. It is the "fight or flight" response to something we wish was different or something we dont know how to handle. We dont really want to die, we just dont want to face what we know we have to. We fight so hard just to stay on track that when something throws us off, we are really shaken.

This is a difficult time of year for you and you have been struggling with several different things. Something like this jury duty thing woul not probably bother you as much if you were feeling stable. Try not to be so hard on yourself about it, it was a mistake. We all make mistakes.

Think of the times you have felt good, stable. Try to remember that this will pass and you will feel good again. I usually hate this time of year as it is always difficult for me too. This is the first year in a very long time that winter is manageable for me. Try to focus on feeling good and the good things that you do. xo

Thank you my friends. :)