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Help Pdoc triggers???

tats69
tats69
Who gets triggered by going to their therapist or pdoc??

I haven't been having full blown panic attacks lately but I'm on the verge to and so I posted. I feel this sense of guilt, worthlessness, like I'm being judged and quite a few other things the day before I have to go. I get stuck in my head all day, before I have to see anyone. I get triggered and can't make it stop.

Makes me want to take a few shots of vodka and I don't drink!
tats69
tats69
Going to the appts. is a huge reminder to me of all the f'd up things i have done......guilt.

Going makes me feel like catching a freaking buzz so I don't have to deal with the guilt.....on and on and one....sigh. My head is swimming.....with thoughts and I'm getting really pissed off.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Going to the pdoc makes me feel guilty and like Im a drug addict, only there for the meds. My pulse races and I get hot flashes. I think everyone in the lobby is judging me too. I usually get worked up the night before my appointment. Its always been this way.
Jenna77
Jenna77
Take a death breath....let it out. My last pdoc triggered me and it was a bad situation all around. He didn't listen to a word I said and I just got angrier and angrier by the minute. I almost lost control. If you are having a problem with you pdoc, you should consider switching. Is there something in particular about him that you don't like? Going to the appts shouldn't be a reminder of the things you have done, it should serve as a reminder of the things you are trying to correct, ie behaviors and thoughts. You should be proud of going to the pdoc. The worst thing you can do right now is drink. That will only cloud your judgement even more and make you feel much more depressed and down on yourself. Trust me, I've been there. Is there someone who can maybe go to the appt with you and walk you through it? I know I've had to take my mom with me sometimes to help me through. Just keep reminding yourself that you are doing the right thing by going to the pdoc and trying to get better.
tats69
tats69
It's not the pdoc himself, he's real nice and we have a good doc/pt relationship. It's not him personally that triggers me is what I'm trying to say.

I'm so agitated with all of it. Getting someone to go with me will just make me more angry. I'm having a read hard time with this and can't sort or express what my thoughts are, as much as I'd like to. I can't stop crying.....